Thursday, April 26, 2007

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Morning were raining so heavily lo..piang..than when at home..daddy still wan to drive mi to sch de..but mins later the rain stopped..than thought no more rain le..can walk sch..than how i noe halfway towards interchange..it started pouring heavily again..shit lo..than is damn big lo.bo bian..thought of hirin a cab..but at tis peak hr somemore rainin day..n is 7+ liao..than also don noe where to hire,.than walked to sch..by the time we reached sch..we were all wet..than took off my shoe..than wanted to dry my clothe..but all washroom hand dryer is spoil..stupid toilet..than bo bian..have to let it dry naturally..shirley don wan wear shoe..than pei her lo..haha..than took off my shoe..than walked bare footed..lolz..1st period bio..than ms wong stunned when we didnt wear our shoe..lolz..than she lend mi her slippers..very cute lo..gt fury fury ball ball infront de..haha..than shirley lend from mr yeo..lolz..2nd period p.e..played tug-a-war..compete wif one of de sec 4 NA..than every round we wins..lolz..last time lose to them..damn sian..but tis time gt back wat we ought to win..lolz..saw the unity among our class..really..impressed...after tat pysics..erm..nt bad too..quite freee..than after recess is history..haha..nth much do also..slack slack..than 2 period maths..startin eveyrone was so quiet lo..tink mr yeo not in gd mood..than all guai guai do work all tat..after tat is 2 period C.E lesson..gt the D I S C thingy..abt ur peronality all tat..its really true..haha..have to browse thru again the booklet..had a peronal booklet on mi..haha..after tat arrange the tables n chairs for tomoro's mid yr examination..than went art room.ping have to find treacher about her art..quite long.than had fun in there..walked to lot1..than went to walk ard..do something impt..than go home le..later gonna b bz wif something le..hmm..anyway..jia you for tomroo exam ba..kambateh..!! GO GO GO !!muackz..best wishes..

Is our distance gettin closer or further ? I don wan de lei..I don noe wat happen lei..Strange lei..Mayb of my self peronality or wat ??hmm..don noe la..felt so unhappy..haiz..wat bout u ? I nt don wan to open my mouth to tok to u..i'm scare of the consequences..will it turn out bad ? or wat ? haiz..so confused..I scare when i step out the first step u will jus ignore mi..haiz..many thoughts go thru my mind..how huh..cause wat i'm tinking now is nth much happen ma..all is over le..jus tat we r silent..tats all..mayb serious misunderstanding in btw ba..yup..U noe how glad i'm when i gave u de choco tis morning..lolz..at least i gt the chance to tok to u..wheneva i see u i don dare to directly look at u..i scare i will get some negative looks back..wheneva i wanted to smilex to u..i don dare to smilex directly..haiz..i wanted to find the chance to get close to u wheneva i see u..i wan to tok to u if there's a chance..haiz..y our friendship suddenly b'cum like tat ? haiz..i don wan la..yup..Mayb i shld take de first step out..but i relaly cant get to it..don noe y..strugglin..haiz..how how how..no matter wat..wanna wish u best wishes n good luck for ur tomoro english mid yr examination..kz..tc..noe u get down to flu tis few days..tc ba..Missed.

Guardian Angel Paradise @ 5:39 PM

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Wednesday, April 25, 2007

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Today were quite tiring..very moody everyone of us..hmm..best part is..1st 2 period..history..ms ong nv cum..wahahaha..than slack..but still doin work n studyin for bio la..than after tat is 2 period bio..aiyo..die liao lo..the test is quite fun.rotating ard 15 stations..but sure fail de..haha..cause study nt much..lolz.than physicx were fun..mr malek in gd mood today i tink..haha..than the whole class very relax..lolz..than english were very tired le..lucky is 1 period only..than mtl..funny lo..so many teacher in canteen than they go buy food to eat..from the entrance for the stall holders..lolz..than maths were stil ok..but seems like many n many things r really hard to catch up le..haiz..jia you ba..after sch went to lot 1 to find my friend in ajisen..glad to see him ard..hope he will b transfer here..than he wont have to see the SHARON MANAGER face liao..always bias de..haiz..nvm..than walk walk..than went to bought something impt..yup..than 6+ jiu reach home le..preparin for my art thingy..than arrangin all the photo in my documents n hp..than all were re shuffled..haha..so happy..than later jiu go do n revise my work le..yup..


别想你忍不住我提醒自己
伤了心有些事也要过去
心很痛痛的不想再做我自己
很想你也不是因为失去你
用尽我全心全力你
一生情只为这一次与你相遇
与你相慰我为你痴为你累
风雨我都不后悔
我又怎么有路可退
开始离不开你
一生一世的心注定是为了你
若不是因为你
我依然在风雨里
飘来荡去我早已经放弃
伤过痛过后的心情
随你的轻声细语
渐渐忘记那浮浮沉沉的曾经

2nd day le..argh...kip on gt ppl ask abt tis matter..haiz..wats wrong wats wrong ? izzit a test for mi ? a new challenge for mi ? how long do it have to last ? i don noe..sobx.. haiz..missed..

Guardian Angel Paradise @ 6:38 PM

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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

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Hmm..Physic 2 whole period were goin thru a mock paper..than doin correction..than time passed..than after mtl chit chat ..rest abit..than do some work..than after recess english class..erm..2 period still ok..nt restless..haha..bio..haiz..tomroo gt test on reproduction on plants..hmm,.sure fail again de la..lolz.than today no common test..than maths actually 1 period only..but stretch to 2 period..2.15 than end..haha..nvm la..learn more..than we gt a class "cheer" somehow..haha..than after sch put our bags in art room..than went to ajisen to have lunch..have "man zu gan" le..cause ate ajisen which i long wanted to..haha..but feel heartpain at the same time..feeded my mind..my stomach wif all the food it wans to eat..but my pocket will nv b feed..haha..nvm..gonna save up again le..CANT USE ANY MORE $$$ LE..than after tat jiu went walk ard help buy something for mrs tay..than go back sch le..took photos...lots of it..stupid one also have,lolz..had fun..than 6+ everything ended n went home..went to lot 1 again..than i bought a card reader..hmm..for $13..spent money again..but if it is useful to mi.tink is quite worth it ba.hm..SAVE SAVE SAVE FROM TMR ON...than went home le..tried using the card reader..than put photo in..haha.yipee..

Sry..B true..I mizz U..really.is tat kind of nt use to it de miss..haiz..i'm nt giving the attitude u r goin to b pleasant everytime..i'm sry..tats mi..i really hope i can change into a better mi b'cos of u..but another way i hope while i'm trying to change..u can try acceptin mi too..I admit..tis time is really my fault..it is..i started the cold war..Juz 1 day..but i really cant take it..so fragile..my stubborn..stupid..attitude n character..i m also wonderin..when will it stop..will u hate mi ? i don noe.No much ppl can really tolerate mi..i don wan to force u..but..haiz...i m scare i will get the coldnest from u if i were to approach u..i scare the ignorance from u..haiz..were tinkin how were u..felt the hurtx..but cant sae..saw u but can jus turn away..b'cos of my irritatin face..haiz..i'm sry..tats all..tc..

Guardian Angel Paradise @ 9:21 PM

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Monday, April 23, 2007

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Morning art..hmm..Change my theme..at 1st is "Colour Of Life"..than change to "My life"..than lastly finalist on "ME"..lolz..cause mi n mrs tay sit down there tok n discuss abt lots of things..than the manipulation all tat..than in the end still feel doin abt myself is still de best..cause i cant really focus on my friends tat much..i noe myself fully well than knowing them..n i really cant focus much n do much on them..so in conclusion we decided to do on myself..hope tis will b finalist theme..n hope i can do well n score well for it..Took mi 4 periods to do n dicuss on my art wif teacher..1st time lo..lolz..before recess i'm in the art room all the while..lolz.

Than after recess..Mr yeo didnt cum..tink sick dao very yan zong le ba..than 2 period no lesson..than were chatting n having fun wif the boys in class..feel my class is becuming more n more united..but kicking n leaving out some of them..OF COURSE DE LA !! not only mi agree on tat lo..the guys too lo..nvm..

During history class..jus 1 period..done nth much too..chatting away..than goin thru some ans n all tat..

English gt back our common test 3..than gt 17/30..nt tat well done..but at least gt improvement..yup yup..haha..than done some corrections n the whole day of lesson is gone n finished jus like tat..haha..so happy..

Waited long for the whole day lesson to b over..haha..y lei ?! cause planned to go for a movie..woohoo..been waitin n hoping the time pass faster..lolz..quite a long time since i watch le ba..n craving to watch tat show..<200>..as i heard tat it is quite a nice show..than walked to lot 1 wif valerie n vincent..than she went home n we went to watch the show at 3pm..the movie was great..really..learnt something from tis movie..yup..=x..guys r probably de same ba,.lolz..no la..anyway..nice show..than after tat were so paiseh..feel like eating ajisen for quite a long time le ba..but don dare sae..than also don noe if he wan to eat or not..than asked him..how wish he will sae ok..than i'll b relieve liao..lolz..but the ans is don noe don noe..hmm..nt an ans i wan..but as my friends they all noe i hate making decision..everytime they decide n i follow..n everyone happy..haiz..but than after tat..i okok lo..walked to ajisen there..than i noe he is playing wif mi.."eee.."as usual..i noe..but i m sensitive.jus feel so..don noe how to sae la..the feelin is like..i already so ps liao..don noe whether u will wan go not..than ask u wan eat where u don noe,,.than i ps walk there hope u would jus smilex n sae ok..to u..eee is alright..but at tat moment to mi is nt ba..jus wanna sae out how i felt..if u were to see my blog..i understand fully well u'll get angry,,nvm..normal reaction..i jus wanna sae wateva feelin in my blog..tats all..than my temper is like tat de lo..once i'm "scare" tio..at tat moment i somehow felt so ps..don noe how to express..than i can only shut up n walk on..mind was so blank..tinkin of wat to do..don noe where to go le..than today nan de no nid so early go home..in sch still thought of goin to catch a gd meal without rushing home once..as mummy is goin out at nite..n told her once i'll b out abit later than usual..haiz..n it is jus ruin like tat..nvm la..than went to ntuc..walk here n there jus to delay some time..hopin everything wld b fine by then..than i asked again..u gt pissed off{of course.normal reaction] by then le..than fine lo../my normal reaction is fine..go home then..we'll walk n go no where if we continues like tat..volcano might jus erupt lo..than jiu go home lo..how i felt like crying..don noe y..too sensitive le..guilty ?? probably..I've apologize le..acceptin or not is up to u..pls hate mi if u wan ba..makes mi more relieve..i wont b able to giv u the right attitude everytime..especially recently..i tried..but..i'm sry..

I don wanna giv u attitude de..u tink i wan ? i m gettin more n more sensitive to wateva u do..jus a normal reaction tat cums out..i also wan control..but u noe it is relaly hard ? i don noe..as u change..i expect more n more from u..i hate it..but i jus feel man zhu gan when i see u change one by one,.i hurt u i noe..but i also don like lo..as i told u..my emotion n feelin recently r swingin..i don wan to affect anyone of u..i said b4..my feelin change..my sensitivity is very strong..my aim n goal is higher n higer..i hate tat..i hate it..i told u once..for a person to love others..she must start to love herself first..ya..i do..but wheneva things happen n hurt someone..i hate myself lots..yes i do,..i really does..wat sucky attitude yu shian is giving..wat kind of knn charcarter she is showing..y cant she jus b like some other gals who cld take up wateva blow..hold back their tears..accept the fun n jokes..accept others doin..etc etc..y cant she do it ? how i wish n envy othet gals when i see their strong power in them..i m anti social..i likes being alone..i like to tink myself..i like to follow my own ways..i like to rule myself..i tink very highly of myself..tats y i m fated to fall one day..without even anyone to call an ambulance for mi..cause by then no one will eva likes mi..no one will even tink of mi..no one will cares abt mi..tats all..different feelins n emotion kip coming,..i ren n ren n ren..but i really cant stand it too long..i cry wheneva i feel like..cause too many things is stored inside for too long n once a little things aggitated mi i burst everything out..i m not a strong gal inside..nv..since young..i may b a cry baby..but i noe i'll feel better after tat..i might b hard on the ouitside...n an eye sore of others..but deep down do u all noe how to deal wif mi ? do u all noe wat i tinking ? do u all noe how hurt n regret when i noe i hurt u all ? saying sry sincerely out of my mouth is relaly really hard..u noe how much courage do i nid to do everything ? haiz.shall jus end here..

Friends out there..Accept mi for who i m if u can..if not..i urge u to leave mi..i relaly scare i'll jus break all ur bones one day,..noe my character..noe my attitude..I M HOT TEMPERED !! I have a F***ing Attitude for u all to deal wif..b prepared to go thru all tis as a friend of mine.if nt..leave ba..till now..i only met one who can truly deal n convince mi..but in the end..tat person gave up too..yup..i'm so hard to deal wif..n tats all..

Guardian Angel Paradise @ 5:45 PM

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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

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Lesson b4 recess were all cancelled..hooray..haha..cause mornin gt the sports heat at stadium for those runners..than teachers we there too..than morning gt house cheerin practice..statin to get enthu as the date of sports day is nearer n nearer..than i vow to myself..tat day i definitely must cheer as loud as possible..don care abt anyone..anything..even no voice also wan to cheer..tis is my last yr in sec sch life..sports day le..i wan to enjoy myself..than after tat went back to class than since no lesson..we gathered n discuss n settled the class tee..n ya,..today collected almost half the class money le..haha..hope it goes well..than after recess..lesson were ok..than after sch went to science centre..omni theatre to watch videos on Human body parts..nice lo..haha.enjoyed..than were nt feeelin tat well..but nth de la..endure jiu hao le..after tat teacher let us alight at lot 1 since the bus pass by lot 1..haha..than went to kfc wif my darlings..pei them eat..than went home..tired..later goin slp le..troubled..anyway..tc everyone..hot day drink more water..cheers..=)

Guardian Angel Paradise @ 7:39 PM

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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

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Morning still ok..but awhile later tat kind of freakin emotion n feelin cum le..i relaly don like it..kip on trying to restrict it but relaly cant..i cant bear to leave my friend but i have to..my face n attitude is too much for them to accept le..i don wan to affect them..friends..mi myself also don noe wat happen..so i relaly cant sae out how i feel n wat happen..sry lei..tis will nt b the end..but i definitely noe tat i'll try as far as possible to stop everything coming..sry..than after sch..b'cos of mi problem..shirley dropped tears..i'm sry..i really don noe how to sae it out..sry..after tat sat outside art room alone for very long..than tink n tink..than li n dor came out n tok things out..n today things were settled..i'm so sry..i really cant giv u all a full explanation..jus bear wif mi for tis while.k..sry..b4 tat went for GB project thingy...F*** la..i didnt noe u all made li n dor a puppet lo..scold them for wat..idiot..u all r jus a bunch of sec4 lo..idiot seh..damn freak de lo..u all wan scold or sae wat also no nid humiliate the sec5 infront of all the juniors n other GB gals de lo..idiot..enough of all tis nonsence lo..so wat if all teachers dote of u all so much..pui lo..nth de lo..only noe how to follow teachers backside n help them clean n clean..n put honey on it..eeyyer..er xin lo..siao de..tink u all big grp jiu can GL la..freak..really enough le lo..i didnt scold u all directly is b'cos i giv u all face n don wan any quarrels jus b'cos u all r my juniors..but don go over the limit hor..betta watch it...than after everything..left sch abt 6+ than watied for the bus damn long..lolz..than went to buy bubble tea..than saw wh..hmm,..than after tat vinz sent mi home again..before i gt of the cab he passed mi something..startin still thought is rubbish.lolz..than as i nid to get off fast..than jus get off n took it b4 i cld see n sae anything..haha..than saw it is a strawberry lollipop..hahax.so sweet lo..i mean the lollipop..haha..no la..but really nice of u.tks..for cheerin mi up..sry if i were to make ui angry tis few days..really have to bear wif mi for quite some times..n tks for ur patience towards mi recently..muackz..opps..lolz..nvm la..others don tink too much..is a buddy kiss..haha..lolz..lame..u all wan i also can give..muackz..take tis hor..don take wrong..lolz..so stupid..k la..anyway..conclusion is today is sad..happy..glad..n friends..really really wan to tks u all in advance..
*WO jiu shi xi huan ni na wei wei de xiao rong*
*Jing Jing de pei zai wo shen bian,chong bu li qu*
*Xie Xie ni*

Yu shian

Guardian Angel Paradise @ 8:08 PM

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Monday, April 16, 2007

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Morning woke up 5+ make breakfast for my darlings..than went out quite early today..than reach there abt 7.53 like tat..lolz..than had house meetin..will have another on wd morning..than friday is sports day le..than class were still ok..than after sch all no IP coaching jiu went to lot 1..than mi.serene.wan hui n vinz went to suki sushi to eat..i didnt eat b'cos of some prob..yup..really cant spend money le..so ..yup..sry lei..than went down cause vinz wan deposit n withdraw money..than mummy appear..tok to mi,..than different emotion came..many feelin..cant b telled.mi also don noe wat happen..jus feel really scare..really..than went back than sit there rest..n was in a daze thruout..don really dare to look at him..i scare he angry..but he was there to stand by mi..tks..he sent mi home..haiz..than reach home le..tok to mum again..than she told mi about relationship thingy..about kor n his gf..n many things..than kip on say mi n him..sure nx time together.than kip on tell her no la..than she kip on sae..no matter hwo she see...no matter which direction she look from ..she still tink we r together,,alamak..than she even sae he slim down le..grow taller n look nicer le..lolz..duhx..than since jus now i reach home till now she nv stop tokin abt him..haiyo..kip on sae abt future..argh..omg..erm..if u were to look at my tis post don b erm..yup..she is jus jokin ba..i tink..k..hahax..anyway..had a tirin day ba..tomro will b more tired ba..hmm...

HEY U..CRAZY OR IDIOT..FREAK LO. U WAN NUMBER GO ASK URSELF LA..Y MUST GO THRU MI..SIAO..FROM YRS AGO MANY PPL KIP GO THRU BY MI TO GET OTHERS NUMBER..GET GALS NUMBER ALSO MI..GET BOI NUMBER ALSO MI..SIAO AR..I NOT A PHONE BOOK LO..I NOE I NT PRETTY N NO ONE WANS MY NUMBER OR WATSOEVA..BUT CAN U ALL DON LIKE TAT NOT...TO U ALL IS NORMAL..BUT TO MI I WILL BECOME MORE ZI BEI..I FEEL MORE LOW SELF ESTEEM..EVERYTIME WAN PRETTY GAL NUMBER OR WAT ALSO ASK MI GO..EVEN IF IS THE GUY I ADMIRE MOST..HAIZ..I DON NOE LA..PLS LA..N JUS WANNA SAE..I WILL NV GIVE PPL OTHERS NUMBER WITHOUT PERMISSION FROM THE NUMBER OWNER..SO NO USE ASKIN MI DE..N IF U HAVE DE GUTS TO WAN..THAN U SHLD HAVE THE GUTS TO ASK..CAUSE NO MATTER WAT IN FUTURE U GET THE NUMBER LIAO U ALSO HAVE TO HAVE THE GUTS TO CONTACT DE MA..DON TELL MI U ASK PPL GET FOR U DE NUMBER N U EVERYDAY STARE AT IT AR..CRAZY..WARN U ALL LO..I MAY NOT B AS NICE AS OTHER GALS OUT THERE..BUT PLS NV HUMILIATE MI..I M ALSO A GALL..A HUMAN BEING..A PERSON WIF FEELIN N EMOTION..K..

Guardian Angel Paradise @ 6:25 PM

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