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Friday, March 10, 2006

` The past had came back...miserable...

Morning no need so early wake up..so mi slp till abt 7..haha...than went to wash up all tis..than at 7.30 like tat, daddy drive mi n mummy to the polyclinics..than drive my kor to his school...than when we reach..polyclinic already have a lot of ppl there le..even though the nurse have not done in preparing...haha..than we went to 2nd floor..the place where i did my x-ray..cause the doctor sae go straight to take my report before goin see doctor...than i told the nurse le..she don understand mi than still keep on saying n saying..as if i were wroong..than the doctor who helped mi to have the scan, came out n gave mi a report n i then we went down to queue for number n then go see doc..than very fast lor...the doctor than told mi tat my bone has no broken or injuries...but don noe only wat is hurt ar...aiya...don noe la..very chim ar..jus noe tat doctor sae no physical exercise for mi..n have to rest n take medicine regularly..than thought of cant go pulau ubin wif them tomoro till morning...makes mi soo sad n disappointed...tis is the event i waited for long..haiz..really sad..sob..but vin also ask mi not to go..haiz...no choice..haha..than doctor gave mi a mc for 8-10am de...

Than when we left the clinic, my mum asked mi to go take cab to school...than i insist on taking bus than walk to school...cause my mum don wan mi walk too much..lolz..than we went to take bus to interchange....than mummy acc mi walk to school..haiyo..told her no need lor..haha..than when we reach le..mum went straight to work..than mi go into general office..than saw mr loh there..than he still ask y am i here..haha...he donno mi morning nt in sch..haha..than i gave him the mc..than went back to class le...than nigel still ask mi.."a..u gt cum arh..??"diao lor..haha..

mr malek no cum today cause he go course..haha...so gd..so happy...than thought no tys test le..but nv did we thought tat he printed out the test n the relief teacher gave us n do...omg...n the relief teacher is the one i hate most man..haha...than after tat i start doin my chinese test...haiz...so difficult sia...sob..lol..than after tat is for mentor to giv our PPR to us..than we waited very long but still haven cum...the other classes already is dissmissed..hai..but i don care cause i am still doin my chinese..haha...than ms ang said..those who did not get ppr means have to meet parents..i was damn scare sia..than the 1st one teacher call is mi le..haha...than i relief le..lol..than tis time mi get only 2 'U'..cause normally i will get 3 or above de..haha..tis time only humanities n maths...science i everytime get U de..but tis time i thought wil at least get '5'..but nv did i thought i gt 3..haha..sooo happy...hehe...than shirley did not get her result..means have to meet parents..she was soo sad she cried soo long..haiz...hope she's alright...than after tat we went to hand in our work all tis..than shirley find ms ang n tlk all tis..haiyo..bery long ar...than vin start to unhappy le..than i also..i bo bian...we both go first..cause anyway they lata goin to buy pular ubin thingy...

haiz..than mi n vin went to lot1..than saw 2 bryan..n leo..the artist...haha...so shuai...lolz...than we went to find biao jie..than went to his hse le...his hse must walk quite far sia...maybe b'cos i not use to it ba..than somemore very wulu..haha..than reach his hse...his mum n didi at home...than went to his room...[ don anyhow think] than his didi was sooo cute...ahha..played wif him than after tat vin ask him out le..than vin close the door than his didi was knocking n banging at the door..haiz..ask him open he don wan..haha..than we watch tc n also sailormoon show...soo nice..lolz...than after tat his didi came in again..than saw his mei mei...haha..quite cute...alamak..as if i saw his whole family..haha...than i carried his didi...than he hit n hit..than starting hit "wrong place" nvm...than nx time he hit same place again...omg...out of shape le la..lolz...than he like play till soo fun..than i quickly pulled my bag n cover my front...diaox..haha...but he still continue trying to aim the same place..aiyoyo...than i shouted vin for help...lolz..than after a while he shouted at his didi..i was shock...than his didi went out of the room le..at then i was relieve for the moment...haha..than continue watching..than after his didi bath,his didi came outside his room...than when i turned outside, his didi no wear cloth lor...than only take a towel run here run there...omg..i was like immediately turn to the other side..lols..though he is a small kid..but still feel quite strange..cause not my relative mah..than also nt tat close..lolz...scare mi...than he keep on standing there...smiling away..rather cute..than suddenly vin shouted again at him,..very loud..scare mi..than didi was like shock n like tears in his eyes...i then ask him to go find his mummy...than he went le..than when he was dressed, he came in again...haha...than he ask vin to carry him...sooo cute..they both really very close...vin really treat him quite gd...not bad..love to see him play wif his didi...cause he at tat moment is like very patient n showing love n care for the others...really very nice of him...=X... Than somemore his room is very nice n comfort wor..haha..don noe ..jus like his room..=X..gt his own tv..com...so gd...haha...his mei mei room also..wow...gd sia...how i wish i have one too..hehe..But it look quite like wei hong room..haiz........

abt 5 something, we went out le...than vin took mi to walk here n there...i was totally a mountain tortise at tat moment...cause i not familiar wif tat place...than he still wan to leave mi alone...i was sooo scare..than he went to take things from don noe who...his relative ar..aiya..donnoe la..than at there gt few malays like very wat like tat...than i was like very scare of tat place...don noe y..my heart jus feel uncomfortable...than when he was done..i asked him to quickly bring mi out of here...i almost cried out..don noe y..i suddenly felt a scare feeling...maybe is b'cos tink of the past ba..bring up the past matter which affect mi soo much..sob.. than somemore is at a unfamiliar place..haiz...than i became very very very quiet when we walked all the way to BP...than took bus to lot 1..i was jus like.,..don noe y suddenly feel pain n unhappy in my heart...at tat time even when i saw vin i also cant cheer up...does my past really affected mi today soo much ? y i jus have to remind of the past??? haiz...than when reach cck...went down thought of buying things for my family but too long than don wan le..than go home le.. than ask him cum my home first..cause he wan to wait for his friends mah..n he no way to go..no one to pei him..cause i cant too late go home so have to go home le..but he sae he don wan...lolz..than he go home lor..haiz..than reach home told mum bout result..than she quite happy cause gt improve mah...haha...haiz...vin..thanks for accompanying mi back to cck jus now...thanks....haiz..today really mi very very very unhappy..at the end of the day...why do my mind wan to let the past appear again...wat i can sae is i am really scare of being alone...fighting a"war" by myself...really...pls don leave mi alone...i really cant afford it...sob...than k la...gtg slp le..not feeling well..God Bless for the Gb gals goin to pulau ubin...jia you oh..bye..take care...miss u all...

[[ Have i foind my guardian angel ??]]
[[I hate the feeling of being alone..]]
[[ Pls don leave mi alone..]]
[[ Pls be by my side when i need u..i mean it..]]
[[ Feeling very xin ku without u by my side..]]
[[ I need ur care..concern..n "love"...]]
[[ Pls guide n bring mi through tis difficulty times..]]

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