Early in the morning abt 5 something am beng hong msg mi..at first my hp vibrated than i still thought i am dreaming so nv care..than it vibrated so long than i cannot tahan liao than wake up..blur blur than see my hp than now is beng hong..alamak..so early sia..than he sae he very unwell..very xin ku..haiz..than he ask mi pei him go see doc..than i thought he sae at tat time ask mi pei him..so early..something wrong ar..than he sae no la..is about 8 am something than go see..than i oh..kkz..than ask him go back slp..i was so tired lo..than i slp till very late..than when i woke up than i see my hp it is quite late le..than i saw miss call from beng hong..than i quickly msg him lo..till very long he still nv reply mi..haiz..wonder he is angry wif mi or he fainted liao..lolz..than 3 somehting went out to meet my mum..cause today take report book ma..than go sch..than thought will kena scold..cause tis time did really too badly le..but mid yr tat time my family really too much problem le..haiz..than mum jus sae some encouraging words..luv her lotz..cause after shirley gt her report book she kena scold by her father..he scold her stupid..haiz..she damn sad lo..casue she also score better than mi how is it possible for her to be scolded..haiz..hope everything is fine le..k la..end le..tc...
After sch don noe gt art so no go..than went to itc to find vinz..than waited for charmaine to finish the coursework..than i gave her a time limit..than if she exceed she willl have to treat mi to an ice-cream..haha..than she really exceeded..so she treated mi a mcflurry...than after tat...go home le..than beng hong sms mi sae he sick n etc..haiz..so ke lian..now nv go work still must pay for medcine bill..than sms liao ask him go rest first...than he sae he very unwell..haiz..hope he is fine..nitez..
Today morning wake up still bery tired..haiz..than bo bian go sch..than morning have to go run 5 rounds cause no go taf camp..siao de lo..gt reason also cannot..than nvm lo..than tat shirley only go for sat morning..from 7 something to 9 like tat only lo..than also counted gt go..than zhao zhi dao mi go for a sec or few min also counted la..siao de...haiz..than ask her pei mi WALK..she also don wan...sian diao lo..than i shout her go back class la..since she don wan walk..than after tat go library for chinese IP..than after recess cause someone need to use the library so we go back class do our thing first than 12.55 go back again..than at class nigel they all play true or dare..very funny seh they all..lol..than tat jj camp to our class..sit here n there..than i sitting at teacher chair mah..i doin my chinese..than he stand beside mi tok n tok..than i tell him he too tall..ask him squad down if wan to tok to mi..than he squad down lo..haha..than he tok i do my things..than he tok nt clear like tat i also don noe wat he toking..alamak..than morning he late mah..than i walk pass him he look at mi i look at him.than i don noe y i buai tahan laugh at his stupid face..after tat went back to library to do paper 2...than it was so cold lo..i keep on sneezing..haha..than after tat on the way home..tok to wei hong on the phone..he in camp doin things..than he told mi he patch wif ailing again.stupid lo.as if like vey fun like tat..sian diao..than i also don noe la..feelin so confuse..i also don noe wat is my feelin...than go home i bath liao than tok on phone again..than i also don noe la..feel so pek cek..haiz..feelin so luan...haiz..don noe la..jus hope i wont like him back..jus hope he will nt be my replacement..
Today nth much to do..tink very much i tink..than he did nt fulfill his promise..make mi damn mad..haiz..forget it..tomoro still have sch...
At nite receive msg from jie saying tat wei hong n ailing break le..than i kena shock sia..at tat moment of time..i don noe my feelin is happy or sad..i jus simply cant figure out wat i am feeling..all the way my mind is jus blank..than wei hong msg mi..than awhile later he called mi..than we chatted till very late..about 1 something ba..than he sounds quite sad..than ailing gave him de reason is b'cos of his lookin..height..education..haiz..wat freaking reason is it..now than sae all tis..diaox lo..stupid idiot..as if like playing him lo..aiya..don noe la..mayb he also huo gai..have tis ending..lolz..haiz..i don noe la..i am so scare i will have feelin back for him..do i still have tat little bit feelin towards him ?! i don noe..but many ppl keep reminding mi tat don be too soft hearted..as for how he treated mi last time when we break up..haiz..i also don noe wat will happen if our history repeated again..will it repeat ? will i be hurt again ? will i be happy ? or will he jus be a replacement ? haiz..i don noe..let fate decide..
Moody day..sadness appear..morning go sch eyes so swollen..haiz..than morning still repeating my words."i don wan go sch"..but mummy sae giv mi confident go sch n face everything..no pt running away from the prob..haiz..but my heart is still really scare..scare till frozen liao.. than go sch eyes swollen..feeling frozen..no mood to tok at all..than after flag raising suddenly they plan to let us retake our nafa..sian diaoz..cause mi no wear pe t shirt..haiz..nvm lo..mood already no gd le..than still have to sit under the sun for so long to wait for the teacher..haiz..mood becum worst..than the standing broad jump left a few cm than pass liao..haiz..than in the end..still fail jus only tis station..than after tat went for early recess..cause we still have mtl Ip..than saw nigel outside office..than noe tat he kena sabo by zi kai..stupid lei tat zi kai..sae he loiter around the sch even though he finished his station earlier on le..but he did not lo..he is at he standing broad jump there cheering for mi lo..lolz..he ..edmund..hong peng..n wei chuan there cheering for mi..mr siah also noe..but tat stupid zi kai go sabo him..siao de..sian diaoz lor..haiz..than after tat went to find tat person..than don wan to hear or rather don have the attitude..don have the patient to hear wat i gonna sae..than after toking awhile ask mi to go tink abt it..but i already told the truth le mah..don blieve wat can i do..i really don noe..no means no..cant proberly force mi to sae out a yes ma..haiz..than my heart feels sad again..than tears cum out..than after tat go chinese..than announcement sae 12.15 must go back own class check marks or wat ar,..than go back le..so afraid to step into the class.haiz..than when check de mark..already being deducted le..than surprised mi de is the CME lo..i nv eva get a 'B' b4 de lo..i everytime get 'A' de..nt i wan to hao lian or wat..but its the fact..than tis time b'cos of tat stupid idiot matter SHE gave mi a 'B'..alomost everyone get A lo..haiz..i felt really damn sad..than go out of class..than tink tink tink..until my head so pain..feel so stress in it..than shirley they all cum to mi..tok n tok..than i suddenly tok until pekcek liao..i shouted so loudly..i really cannot take it liao..than tat jj walk pass than he look at mi than i see him..than tink he wans to tok to mi but i was crying ma..than he sae oh..nvm..bye..tc..lolz..than i okok..than really i felt so stress..really no energy..than headace came again..haiz..than after tat go back for chinese again..teacher also nt happy le..cause our NA 'O' a few ppl nv cum..tat william they all la..stupid kuku de lei..pon pon pon..tink fun ar..teacher so much time giv us de ar..hardly let us learn something for our own gd they don wan..even though it is sian but stil have to at least endure till the end of the O lvl mah..don noe how to tink de lei..haiz..than make teacher so angry..see liao also nt happy..haiz..than after tat went to take bus to lot 1..than meet up wif mummy than go buy things..than go home le..all the way head very pain..haiz..rest early ba..N as for my art..though i failed..i am still the 1st in my class..1 more mark i can pass liao lo..she also don wan giv mi..sian diao..haiz..nvm la..k la..go rest le..tc..haiz..really cannot take it..really tired le..really breaking down soon..endure ba...
Morning went sch wif a fast beating heart..cause getting result back le..all the subject at a go..sure heart attack de..haiz..than morning go class..one by one the paper is given back..english stil ok..than the rest of the paper..DIE liao lo..Bio most gek xim de..fail by 1 n 1/2 mark..haiz..careless mistake..than as for s.s...fail by 4 marks..history fail by 5 marks..physics fail be 7 marks..maths sure fail de..but tis time only fail by 11 marks..last time always get single digit de..nt bad liao tis time round..than those failed subject also nt bad le..cause most of the time i only got single digit or 10 marks something only..nt bad le..yipee..but stil nt gd..cause only pass 2..sure die de..so i must buck up le...as for art..haiz..most sad de..thought will pass..nv slp b'cos of tat..but failed..almost all the art student failed..my class no ppl pass..1st time sia..than we all so disappointed lo..really no mood after all le..than after checkin of paper we still need to go for mtl IP..sian..must study wif the express..haiz..than wan slp liao lo..lucky gt bring girl to sch n acc mi..whereva i go i bring her go..hahaz..like her so much..^_^...during ip..so tired lo..wan slp liao..haiz..than after tat abt 3 or 4 something we left le..cause do finish the paper 1 can go le..tomoro still have..sian..haiz..really no mood..mood swing..than go home..go msn..than a case came out..nv did i thought u don trust mi..i am so disappointed n sad..i really did nt do the wrong thing lo..but no one b'lieve mi..than still kena yuan wang..haiz..than i immediately sign off than went to room n find biao jie..than as i tell her..i buai tahan liao..i burst out into tears..i already very pekcek over my marks all this liao..than now still giv mi tis kind of problem..i really feel very depressed..i relaly don noe wat to do..i cried until my eyes so swollen..really no one blieve wat i sae,...y y y ..gaining ppl trust is so difficult mah?! i hate the feelin of being yuan wang..i am damn sad..than cry till my head ma bi..haiz..actually wan to find my so call "kai xin guo" de..but he is angry wif mi i tink..than don dare to contact him..he nt by mi side..mi don noe wat is the meaning of happiness..wat is the meaning of cheering up..where is the smile i have lost..haiz.. so impt to mi..than at nite..slowly my head becomes so pain..cause after crying is like tat de mah..haiz..than go slp lo..sms wei hong but he very late reply..cause he go out of camp than nv bring his hp out cause no batt..than reach back le than reply mi..very late le..i mid night wake up than saw it..but lan de reply him..lolz..than i still keep on telling my mummy i don wan go sch..cause i have a sense of afraidness..don noe y..i really don have feeling to go sch..but i still have to face tat problem..haiz.. than when abt to slp..tears were also rolling down when i closed up my eyes..haiz..hope tomoro is better...nitez..
Morning went to fen bao zi..than cum home slp awhile than go sch for listening compre le..we went to the hall to have it..than after tat we thought we cld leave after tat..cause very fast finish liao mah..than nv did we thought the teacher ask us to stay back..b'cos they wan to giv us back our exam paper..we were shock lor..than somemore i have to meet someone..haiz..than we all abit black face lo..cause they did nt tell us earlier..than nvm..we take back liao..wow..one by one heart attack arz..fail dao very jialat lor..omg..than the paper 2 fail by a few marks..than paper 1 still ok..faint sia..but overall pass..lucky sia..but still borderline cases..must jia you le..or else 29 may coming..our actual 'o' lvl paper..haiz..stress..than the timetable slot for us everyday is chinese chinese chinese n still chinese..haiz..than the time is nt short short lo..is till 5 something or 2 or 3 something..stress arh...............nvm..must endure n get good marks than nx half yr n nx yr no need bother bout chinese liao..haha..jia you ba..there is still lots of exam "surprise" coming up..lucky no heart attack..lolz.. than at nite wei hong contact mi than we sms till we chat on phone..than chat for awhile than he gt 2nd line..than when he finish toking he sms mi back again saying he gt urgent thing..sae will contact mi again afterwards when he is done..than i sms sae i wan go slp liao..than he sae ok lo..nx day than chat..haha..cause actually he wan ask mi call hinm liao..but i sae don wan..lolz..nitez..
I am really very very tired..recently too many things happen ..i really don noe how to sae my feelin..i jus felt so damn tired..i feel like all the energy in mi is goin to use up..i have no more energy more to carry on..i am really very tired..very stress...everyday my head feels pain..heart is so weak to carry on..i jus had to drag my feet n carry on..the step of mine is so heavy..I am so scare i jus drop down one day...wat will happen then ?? i don noe..i jus have to continue living..enduring all tis hurt..But does anyone noe my hurt n my suffering ? Do anyone eva care ? yes..there r..but tat is jus for a moment after i tols them how i felt..after tat leh ?! when i show as if like nth had happen to mi..than they jus continue their happiness...I also don noe jus wat i wan from anyone...izzit the attention ? or the care n concern ? or i jus wan him to b by mi ? ..I really don noe..y m i so selfish ?!! i really hate it u noe..i really cannot tahan the way i am...i really don noe jus wat i wan...How long can i endure? i don noe... Wat really do i wan ? i don noe... having the tireness in mi really feel so unbearable..i jus wan to let go of everything one day n relax myself..how i wish now i am at a beach..wif no one there..only the peace n quietness which will make mi feel calm...I really don noe how to express my feelin...Everyone sae to mi tat wheneva i need them they will be there for mi...but did they really did tat ? some did..but jus for tat moment..after their toking to mi..they jus treat nth happen le..than continue to be happy..u noe i am really hurt...i am wondering jus where is thre right person who will be willing to be by mi everytime when i need him..lend mi the shoulder when i feel like cryin...let mi len on him when i feel tired..wipe away my tears when i cry...hold my hands n bring to thru when i am in pain..cheer mi up when i feel sad..tired...make mi laugh when i lost my smile one day....jus where is this person ?? is there really a person wif such gd 'quality' in tis world left ? yes there r...either is die liao or marry liao or haven born....last time i really did have tis person by mi..but now he is gone..haiz..will there be another one ? i don noe...jus hope tat person would appear soon...let mi lessen my pain..let mi cheer up..when i smile..it doesnt mean it is the true smile...i jus need a person who is patient wif mi...tok to mi n treat mi nicely..tats all i wan...haiz...wat can i do ? i don noe....
Morning went fen bao zi..abt 6 something reach home than go bath...than my hand was so pain don noe y..tink i hurt my hand le ba..haiz..don noe la..than after tat went to slp le..than 12 something mummy wake mi up cause she hungry le..i was dreaming till i forget to wake up..lolz..than mummy sae wan eat tis eat tat..than i sae all u cant eat..but she gt tired of eating all the same food over n over again..haiz..i noe tat sickening feeling..but mummy u have to endure oh..than no choice..mi go sunshine place da bao for her..than when she eat i can at least see the happy feeling of hers..than after tat...i ask her go rest..than i in my room use laptop..than mummy cum my room n lie on my bed..i don wan her to be so far apart from mi..than at least she in my room i can look after her...than she rest than i use com lo..later goin to do housework..cook..than rest..tomoro still need go fen bao zi..than after tat need go sch for listening compre..haiz..jus now hab a small misunderstandin wif him..haiz..so sadded..i really hope we cld be alright after a while..sry if i have really made u angry...i jus wan to noe the truth..but i am already glad knowing the truth at the last min of time from u..at least i noe u did nt sae the truth is b'cos ou scare i wat mah..i understand,,,hope u understand too..sry...
Haiz..so tired today..today is the last paper..art..everytime art made mi tired de.as doin the prepare work will sure n definitely do until mid night..gt 1 yr i didnt even slp lo...haiz..than tis time do my art do till 1 am something..than go lie down awhile later than wake up le..cause need go fen bao zi..haiz..bo bian..than when daddy ask mi up mi still blur blur still so tired..when walking i am still closing my eyes..lolz..daddy still sae if i tired than he go fen himself..than ask mi to go back slp..how i wish i cld really walk back to the room n slp..but i cant..dad have to use longer instate if i didnt go n help out..than in the car daddy ask mi slp first than reach le than wake mi up..than mi immediately fall aslp..haha..than start "work" liao..than the energy slowly cum back..haha..than 5 something finish le..than went to eat breakfast..than go home bath le than go slp le..cause gt art exam..than mi 9 something mummy wake mi up i still so tired than no wake up..than shirley called mi than i sae okok than i go back slp le..than connie sms mi i see msg le than i go back slp again..lolz...despite so many ppl contacted mi i still slping..than vin sms mi than i see msg liao than i "jump" out of bed..than go prepare le..lolz..funny horz..than haiz..still bery tired..than finish preparing than go out le..my final drawin still haven do..than aiya..don care le la..than go meet up wif them than go sch le..than we went to hall n do our art..than i faster try to rush as much as possible cause i still have to complete my prepare work..than mrs tay came n check on our prep work...than mi haven do finish yet..than i also don care..cause many ppl nv do..some even haven touch yet..than at the last min i manage to finish all..so happy..but i have feelin tis time de art i sure get very low grade de..haiz...nvm la..than after art..walked to lot 1..than go buy some house thingy..than on the way to the escalator..we were laming n don noe for wat i go sae shirley 'kanasai'..than a small gal who happen to walk b'side us start to laugh very loud..than we were stun lo..than when we look at her..she was pointin at shirley..hhaa..than damn funny lo..than shirley so paishe than she almost run round the mall lor..haha..than after tat we go home le..than go home so tired..than go slp le..than at 7 or 8 somthing than wake up...than go eat dinner than do housework..o long no watch tv le..than watch the tv programme from 8 to 11..haha..so gd..lolz..than afternoon slp too much le..than cant slp at nite..lolz..than vin called mi..he sae he alone outside..scare mi sia..so late le still haben go home..than still sit at the fountain there see the light on n off..lolz..haiz..i am damn worried lo..don noe y..mayb jus a sign of worry lo..lolz..than i go slp le after i recieved his sms saying tat he reach home le...tomoro still have to go fen bao zi..go slp le ba..nitex..
Morning my alarm clock ring le than i go back slp again..lol..than vin abt 6.15 morning call mi..than wake up..blur blur..than go wash up n bath...than ate breakfast than go out le..reach sch than see everyone studying than mi sit there do nth look here look there..haha..than feel so weird..cause i like very relax..aiya..as i tink tat during exam noe means noe liao..if last min i study make mi more stress n wrong..so rather relax at the very last min..haha..than vin pass mi 4 dvd..show lai de..lolz..than 'star' still sleeping..lolz..haiz..exam goin to start le..maths ! omg..nvm..than jus tell myself to try my best lo..than startin do still quite easy than in the end start to get more difficult..aiya..nvm lo..fail also bo bian liao..neway mi no pass maths b4 mah..lolz..but i wil try hard de..=p..than during break..'star' wake up liao..hungry le..so feed her breakfast..lolz..than play wif her..than study awhile..than saw star don noe nt happy or wat ar..than bring to vin there..giv him see..than i stayed at his place there till bell ring..lolz..joking n laughing lo..lol..than nv study much...than after tat go back exam le..flip open straight away is sri langkan thingy..lolz..than faster do..section A i write very long than section B i write very short..cause spend too much time on section A le.lolz..than nvm lo..anyhow do..cause tink also wont pass de mah...lolz..than after tat vin.qw n wan hui came n find mi..than we walk to the bus stop than thought of taking bus..than the bus so long lo..than in the end walk to lot 1..dot dot dot..than as i walk i play wif star..haha..than reach lot 1 go find place to eat..than wan hui sae she wan go home first..cause her mum gt cook..than ok lo,.we went to food culture...than nth to eat..than go long john again..than vin also gt buy the new 3rd version tamagothchi..than mi play wif the 2 of them..lolz..than the new born is called boy..haha..than go library after tat..i all the way is playing wif them..they r so cute..like them so much..haha..than abt 4 something than go home le..went to sit at the fountain there awhile than go home...than when we jus parted a ew sec,..than i remembered vin 'star' is still wif mi.than i called him..gave him back..haiz..cant bear to wor..miss 'star'now..lolz..than go home..bath le..mummy cook dinner for mi..than eat le..ready to study le lo..but haiz...jus knew tat physicx must read last yr n tis yr notes..but last yr de notes i all don have le..haiz..sian diao..mati le,,nvm..make do wif it ba..than go online..chat..than vin told mi he restart the both tama..than now 1 is gal n 1 is boi..their name r : [ Boy ]&[ Girl ]...haha..cute ba..miss them seh..lolz..haiz...how i wish i have 1..but it is really too ex le la..$29.95 lei..haiz..can last mi a few weeks le..haiz..don dream le la..forget it ba..now go study le..take care...Gambateh neh ! Jiayou..
Today Morning kena woke up by someone !!! he called mi at 9+..than starting he call few times mi no pick up..till the 4th time i tink..than i 'buay tahan'..than pick up the phone..cause the phone beside mi only on my bed..than it vibrate until the whole bed also vibrate..lolz...than hor..the weather is so gd for slping lo..but haiz..cant get back to slp le..cause woke up by someone..lolz..than he still suggest to go chinatown to have "zao dian"...LOLZ...than when i thought of goin back to slp...suddenly being frightened n was so qing xing by his voice..we still on phone..lolz..than i go online lo..in order to show him tat i am nt slping le..haha..than mi go wash up...than online tok lo...than daddy bought breakfast back..omg..the chilli so spicy...drank a lot of water down...lolz..than startin thought goin out to study..but only can go till 3..as mummy work till 3..but than he don wan...he wan later..than bo bian starting sae no wan go liao..than chat chat chat..than ask mi to go ask again..alamak...than i go ask daddy..than he starting sae cannot..than i tok tok than he okok la..ask mi 5 reach home..than ok lo..hao guo cant go mah..hha..than faster go prepare..than go out le..than vin sms mi sae he reach le..in the end i so rush..than when i reach he sae he stil haven reach..i diaoz...lolz.than waited for him awhile..than go to library...than saw no table n chair for mi to write notez mah..so don wan stay at library lo..than vin still sae his back can be my table..lolz..nt bad arz...than we go to food junction thought of sitting there do..but nv did i thought tat there were so many ppl lor..haha..lunch time tats y..everyone sunday no cook at home cum out eat..haha..than vin wan buy thing mah..so go popular..than but thing liao go walk walk than in the end go back to food junction again...than beng hong sms mi..he sae he very sad n sian..b;cos recently met wif some problems of his relationship thingy..than he ask mi where mi..than he wan cum find mi..cause he sae stay at home nth to do..than i ask him cum lo..than we study study..vin halfway stop liao..he sae he tired n don feel like studing..than ok lo..cause he also no study for exam de mah..so sry to ask u to study wif mi..than beng hong came..we tok tok..than he suddenly ask mi who i fancy now..than i diao..y everyone ask the same question recently neh ?! lolz..than i quickly change subject to tok..lolz..than he met up wif friends..than vin hungry so pei him go long john eat..than mi at there draw draw..than play wif "star"..than the 'popo' i draw look like shit lo..lolz..than vin draw de so cute seh..lolz..than after eating go walk walk than abt to go home le..than sit at the fountain there for awhile..than go home le..haha..than he called...than reach home bath..eat dinner..than prepare to study again..but very tired..than fall aslp..lolz..than after tat wake up chat wif vin..than dicuss abt maths..than i revise finish le..so tired..but vin still revising..than wait for him to finish lo...than hold the phone i also can fall aslp..haha..awhile only la..lol..than finally 11 something finish liao than go slp le..than sms awhile ask him wake mi up nx day or else scare i will slp ahead of time..than go slp le..wahhaha..today gt nitez..lolz..bleah..than in the middle of the night..ard 1 something AM..my phone keep vibrating..than i so pek cek..woke mi up..than open n see..saw wei hong msg..aiyo..than i reply back..siao ar..so late liao still sms mi..mi need slp de hor..lolz..than go back slp again..lolzz..tats all for today..jia you for tomoro ba..
Today wake up at 11am something..very late hor..haha..cause the weather very gd...than very tired..wake up mummy n daddy go work le..than quickly on my hp..see anyone contactin mi not...than ate my breakfast..vin contact mi...he 9 something msg mi..omg..he really is a early bird..haha..though at tat time is quite late le..haha..than have a short quarrel..sry to sae wrong thing to u again..than he sae nx time he wont forgive mi if i did the same thing again..lolz..i promise i will be very extra careful wif my word de..=*)..than go watch tv..jie cum my house,..than ni goin to work le..than jie abt 2 something goin to meet friends to do work..than mi still tinking whether to go hai inn shi or nt..cause if mi no go ah le will be very sad..cause he hope mi will go..i rejected him many times le..hhaa..than ok lo..but no one pei mi at first mah..so i still tinking..than after tat..mi go out wif him..than he very the fast lo..in msn sae ok done can go out le..but mi haven even prepare lo..the housework haven complete..haven bath..haven call my mummy..omg..i was so in rush..than he very fast lo..nt more than 5 min hao liao..omg..than he call mi..aiyo..make mi even slower..lol..than faster go out after prepared..wow..lucky he reach a few min later i reach le..haha..than pei him go eat..than he dirtied his shirt..small kid sia..than ask him go buy shirt n change..thought he will sae no need..but he really did lo..lolz..than go hang ten..ask him buy black shirt..cause everytime see him wear blue or white lo..prefer him wear black..lolz..than the price hor..aiyo..nv see properly..thought is 2 for $10..but nv thought tat when paying money the cashier sae $20..alamak..than we noe tat is buy more than piece than 1 piece cost $10..aiyoyo..than i ask him still wan 2 mah..than he ok lo..heart pain sia..so ex...stupid price tag..or shld sae stupid mi..nv see properly..haha..than he so ma fan lo..still have to pick a place to change his shirt..lolz..than he go to the exit there n change instate of the toilet lo..lolz..than after he change don noe y i have a sense of wei hong..don noe la..don noe y go n tink if tat idiot again..mayb jus tat feelin cause everytime he wear black mah..but he is totally a different person from wei hong lo..he is much better than him..wei hong is jus nth which can tbe compared to him..wahhha..than ah le call mi le..ask mi hurry up..haha..cause he ask mi pei him eat dinner mah..than we rushed there..we go jie house first..wait for her change..than we walk there..than they were so bz lo..reach le the both of them also nv ans my call..*hump*..than ah le ask jj to bring mi round..than i find jj he ask mi go find ah le..gt fed up..than ah le ask mi go pray first..than we go there don noe wat to do..stand there..lolz...since no one entertain n bring us..than i thought of goin to my 'tai gong lin wei' to 'visit' him..than starting find..cant find..than go down..than ah le shout up..hhaa..than tell mi he is at 5055..haha...than we go find again..than found it le.so happy...lolz..than don noe wat to do..keep toking to him..haha..of course is without a ans la..or else if gt ans sure qill scare till die..lolz..than use a tissue to help clean the photo n stuff...than we stand there for very loong..than saw jj..called him..so long than pick up lo..lolz..than i told him i cld see every action he do..haha..cause we at top he at bottom..lolz..than he gt shock cause he cant find us..wahaha..so happy..than ask him to turn ard n look up..haha..than we go down..actually he bring us go eat de..than gt 1 person sae he have to do his thing than ask another person to bring us ther..sian diao..than go eat..so de weird..than the fries soft soft de..cold cold de..cause very long le mah..haha..than feed him..lolz...cause he no eat..than after tat saw a relative of mine...tok for a while..than walk out le..no one pei us..so go lo..than jie go home..mi n him go lot 1..on bus a bunch of monkey keep calling mi n him de name..stupid,,too bad we nt tat stupid to ans them..haha..than we hack care,,than go lot 1 walk walk..no place to walk..quite tired also..than go da bao kor kor dinner..than went to the 'fountain' there n sit there chat..see half moon..haha..than gt lighting abt to rain liao..than sit there till about 9..than he bite my hp..than go home than see the 'scar'..poor hp..haha..a memory of his teeth scar...lolz..siao liao..than my kor dinner becum very dry..haha..than took taxi home..late le mah..than he open door for mi..lolz..gentleman...than today i pay for the taxi $ cause i need to rush home..haiz..money fly away le..haiz..nvm..must be more n more thrify again..lolz..than reach home..went to bath..than do housework..than vin call..than mi doin housework as well as chattting wif him..haha..than mum cum back starting okok..than after tat kena scold b'cos of housework thingy..haiz..nvm la..mayb she tired le..let her scold ba..than after tat vin also tired le..so he go slp lo..than he today gt sms nite..haha..so de happi..siao..cause he hardly sae tat mah..so happy lo..haha..mi ate medicine also tired le..k la..go slp le..nite..muackz...thanks for acc mi today...
Today morning wake up late..abt 6.30 than woke up..omg...cause eat medicine than somemore tis few exam days,midnight every half hr keep waking up..don noe y..too stress..haha..than faster rush here rush there prepare tis prepare tat...lolz..than mum bought curry puff..than i grab le than go out le..haha..than reach school than noe tat it is Npcc day..wahhaha..than the first one i find is nigel..haha..than quite easy to spot..cause he stand at the 3rd row..haha..than he is moving here n there lor..NOT SERIOUS..must take back his rank...haha...than very funny lo..their drills..nvm..lol..but they look nice in their full u..haha...than start chinese paper 1..than my class only 1 tamil..than i also today than noe tat my class only 5 malay...lolz...haha..than the "yin yong wen" i write 2 paper lo..my hand like machine sia..none stop de..haha..than write till 2 n 1/2 page..lolz..than 1st time took mi 1hr to write it..than left 1 hr for compo..than i chiong ar..i write 2 full page only..haiz..don noe gt out of pt nt..cause i no confident in tat question..haiz..hope will pass ba..than went for break..than ready for paper 2..than thought tis time paper 2 will be de same as everytime..cause everytime very long de mah..i mean everytime most ppl don have time to complete all...than leave many blank..but tis time we find it shorter,,mayb cus we do many practice recently ba..lolz..but can sae paper 2 difficult also can sae easy ba..don noe..jus how i score well...
Jus wat is happening to mi ? Y i have all tis feeling ? M i really tat jealous..y am i jealous ? haiz..i don noe i don noe i really don noe..... ARRGGHHHHHH ,............... *sob*....Y cant i jus put down everything ? y cant i jus be more happier ? y my only strength is always getting angry b'cos of mi...? y y y ....Y am i so stupid...cant even keep ********** by my side ? y cant i ? Y am i always bottling up everything in my heart ? Sometimes i really wish to sae out how i felt..but i jus scare tat when i sae out i might made other unhappy..i might make things worst..i might even make ppl avoid mi....haiz...jus wat shld i do ? it is really xin ku to put everything inside my heart....
Morning wake up at abt 6..than went to wash up..than sms vin till i go out...today feel better le..reach sch, gave vin..dor..li n ping each a "lucky star"...which have fragrance on it..lolz..hope it cld bring them gd luck n also a sign of lasting friendship...1st paper started...then followed by 2nd...soso la..nt difficult is very difficult..lolz..anyway jus hope will pass..paper 2 i finished very fast...than rest..as i start to feel abit uncomfortable le...cause nv eat medicine..cause it will cause drownsiness..scare later i wont be able to concentrate..than nigel also finished le..than he kep making funny face..n copy wat mr malek do..haha...it was so funny tat i cant even laugh out..than instate of laughin..i keep on coughing..haha...than mr malek asked mi to collect the paper..than we were dismiss..than when walking out of the classroom..saw vin...scare mi..cause i thought he wont cum n look for mi...than we packed up...than planned to go lot 1 eat..than shirley cried..cause today she "suay" came tat one..than she sae pain until don noe is nv complete or anyhow do arh..don noe la..than mi acc qw go office...than meet them at foyer...than we wlked to lot 1..tat nigel n hong peng were like small kids sia..chasing one another...haha..but hte ans is confirmed tat hong peng sure cant catch nigel de mah..haha...than ping they all go home..than hp n nigel don noe wat shit...play hide n seek until don noe go where sia..than i hack care lo...went to ljs...vin n qw eat..than actually i wan to eat my medicine de..cause i was feeling very sick n unwell le..but then i found out tat i did nt refill my water bottle..haiz..sian diao..than bo bian lo..cant eat...than lend qw hp see n play..than saw the msg vin sms her..haiz..rather...don noe how to sae la...mayb gt abit jealous ba..nt b'cos of wat...is jus b'cos of something la....haiz..don noe la...than my mood suddenly sank...than went to walk round lot 1...than nth to do...than walk to the cinema there..so many show coming soon...lolz..i wan to go watch 'when a stranger call'..haiz..but so many ppl scare..diaox lo..last time still gt ppl pi mi..now..haiz...nth to do..than plan to go home..than send the both of them to lrt..than go home le..felt rather dizzy n restless...than reach home..quickly go bath than ate my medicine..haiz..than vin suddenly said tat phrase to mi..than i continue asking n tok to him he don wan bother mi le..haiz..i really don noe wat had happen..jus wat did i do to make him so angry wif mi...i really feeling very lousy le..i really don wish to quarrel wif him..as i said b4 i don like tat feeling..haiz...i really wish tat no matter wat happen i wish to noe wat exactly happen...i don wan to guess tis n tat..than the other get angry wif mi when i don even noe wat happen...haiz...cause i also shock..i toking to jia jun than suddenly he said tat to mi..i was like..omg...how..haiz...jus wat is wrong wif mi ?????!!!!!! i really very fan n confuse u noe..haiz...than only light tat is guiding mi thru r now leaving mi..i relaly scare my world will becum dark again...sob...i jus hope tat it cld be faded soon...haiz...sry... go rest le..feel very sick...tc.. Btw..jia jun..thanks for toking to mi jus now..feel much better after toking to u...though we were lame n don understand wat we r toking abt..but i feel quite alright le..thanks ya...
Morning woke up late...abt 6.30 than wake up..haiz..than was feeling so unwell...so i thought nth de..so went to prepare than go sch...than as time goes by..i felt tat i am feeling more tired n tired..The feelin was like almost suffocating..i cant breath normally like tat..haiz..i felt so xin ku..than on the way to sch...my head start to "spin"..haiz..than reach sch...vin gave mi back the cross stitch..as he don noe how to do...than i have to do it myself lo..but he drew mi a pic on 'popo'..so cute..it is a character in the 'pretty cure' which i like it very much..lolz..than he gave jj a keychain..haha...than morning went running..almost no breath sia..than after tat went back to class n rest than go mtl..than starting mtl still ok..than during art start to feel restless n breathless again...no more energy le..than during recess i ate my breakfast...i really don feel like eating de..cause i am really very xin ku till i don even feel like havin anything...feel like vomiting now n then..haiz..than after recess..biology class..i was resting the whole period...nv copy notes..casue i really no strength le..than halfway went toilet to vomit...haiz..than go after bio is physics..cannot tahan liao..everyone ask mi go sick bay...cause my face is damn white..(they sae de)..than i ok lo..than as i also no complete physics hw..so i nt in class..nv kena punished..haha..dorothy also nv do finish..but she keep mi acc at sick bay..than i slp for a period or so...bell ring le than dorothy wake mi up..i was feeling alright at the sec i wake up..but after a while..my tireness came back again...haiz...than went back to class..than hong peng ask mi go eng Ip..haiz..my brain cant even function le..than still need go..somemore stomach pain also...so many sickness at a time..haiz..than bo bian..go toilet wash up...than go for Ip..than vin came to my class..after IP..i get even worst le..than dorothy lend mi her thermometer to take my temperature...than is 38.3...scare mi sia..cause i thought slight fever only..haiz..than rested in class..cause i thought of goin to seee doc le..but really no energy to walk on..so stay in class first..than the boys they all play here shout there...than i pek chek than shout at them..than they sae abt the tracy thingy all tis la..than mi don noe y also nt happy le..than i shouted at them...haiz..i so xin ku yet still insist on shouting at them..stubborn mi..haiz..than haiz..guys..sry..i didnt shout at u all purposely de..mayb i am too sensitive at tat moment ba..than i was playing wif vin hand..his hand were warm..it feels better than wh hands..lolz..than after tat mi..vin n connie went to sick bay..cause mi wan lie down n rest awhile more first b4 goin..than i fell asleep for awhile than connie ask mi to wake up n take my temperature..than i was blur blur at tat time..i jus put the thermometer into my mouth..than took it..than it was 37.6...stil ok..than vin ask mi take another time...it rise to 38.1..haiz..sianz..than mr kong tok tok tok to us when he pass by..than vin ask mi to get up n go see doc..than he help mi to take my tat big file..than when walking my bag too heavy than dropped down..vin help mi to carry it..thanks ya..sry..it was very heavy..ma fan u le..than we took bus to lot 1..on bus saw qw n charmaine..haiz..i don noe how to face her..suddenly i jus felt a sadness in my heart..donnoe y..jus have a scare feeling inside mi..mayb tat feeling is so call losing a close friend feeling ba..aiya..don noe la..than after alighting..ask charmiane to pass a letter to qw...than we went to ljs..pei them eat their lunch first...than inside was like "kranji sec" gathering lo..most of them inside is kranjian..lolz..than mi hug vin bag...his bag was like a boster to mi..haha..than i fell aslp again....than suddenly vin wake mi up..than when open my eyes saw hy infront of mi..lolz..than after tat we left lot 1.on the way up the escalator..i look up to the 3rd floor...wee liat they all all up there lo..i don care them..than jus walk away..lolz...than after tat..asked vin to go home first..than he asked connie to look after mi..haha..so considerate..lolz.than went to take bus go there...than doc gave mi tomoro 1 day mc..than go home..drank milo n ate medicine..than go rest le..haiz..than sms vin he no reply..thought wat had happen to him.scare mi sia,.than he msg mi when he came back n sae he went out n nv bring hp cause no batt..relieve by then...lolz..than dad was back..he was sick..haiz.. happy to see him back...miss him so much during tis period of time...but many thing is nt settled yet..haiz...$$ is still needed now n then..haiz..really have to be thrivty...than mum cook porridge ask mi go eat..haiz..than eat le..have to prepare to study le..haiz...sian..hope i will be fine by tomoro...jia you ba...1st eng paper tomoro...kambateh...
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