I am really very very tired..recently too many things happen ..i really don noe how to sae my feelin..i jus felt so damn tired..i feel like all the energy in mi is goin to use up..i have no more energy more to carry on..i am really very tired..very stress...everyday my head feels pain..heart is so weak to carry on..i jus had to drag my feet n carry on..the step of mine is so heavy..I am so scare i jus drop down one day...wat will happen then ?? i don noe..i jus have to continue living..enduring all tis hurt..But does anyone noe my hurt n my suffering ? Do anyone eva care ? yes..there r..but tat is jus for a moment after i tols them how i felt..after tat leh ?! when i show as if like nth had happen to mi..than they jus continue their happiness...I also don noe jus wat i wan from anyone...izzit the attention ? or the care n concern ? or i jus wan him to b by mi ? ..I really don noe..y m i so selfish ?!! i really hate it u noe..i really cannot tahan the way i am...i really don noe jus wat i wan...How long can i endure? i don noe... Wat really do i wan ? i don noe... having the tireness in mi really feel so unbearable..i jus wan to let go of everything one day n relax myself..how i wish now i am at a beach..wif no one there..only the peace n quietness which will make mi feel calm...I really don noe how to express my feelin...Everyone sae to mi tat wheneva i need them they will be there for mi...but did they really did tat ? some did..but jus for tat moment..after their toking to mi..they jus treat nth happen le..than continue to be happy..u noe i am really hurt...i am wondering jus where is thre right person who will be willing to be by mi everytime when i need him..lend mi the shoulder when i feel like cryin...let mi len on him when i feel tired..wipe away my tears when i cry...hold my hands n bring to thru when i am in pain..cheer mi up when i feel sad..tired...make mi laugh when i lost my smile one day....jus where is this person ?? is there really a person wif such gd 'quality' in tis world left ? yes there r...either is die liao or marry liao or haven born....last time i really did have tis person by mi..but now he is gone..haiz..will there be another one ? i don noe...jus hope tat person would appear soon...let mi lessen my pain..let mi cheer up..when i smile..it doesnt mean it is the true smile...i jus need a person who is patient wif mi...tok to mi n treat mi nicely..tats all i wan...haiz...wat can i do ? i don noe....
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