Schools were still alright..jus tat under stress ba..very unstable my mood..but he manage to make mi laugh no matter wat..tks ya..than after sch went lot 1..sot de lo..a bunch of better for nth de ppl cum find mi trouble..very wu liao lo..nth de..than wan find dai ji..diaox lo..very strange de lei..tis kind of ppl..backside itchy as if..nth to do than go find ppl troubled..than call tis call tat cumdown settle tis settle tat..siao..wasting my time seh..tis matter is a long story..than some more almost kena slap by tat unity sec stupid idiotic freak gal.whom only noes how to shout only when her "GANG" is behind her..her friend sae forget abt it liao than she at there like the dog like tat bark n bark..forget to eat medicine seh..than still raise her hand kip on wanting to slap mi..siao..only she is the one there whom cannot tok nicely de lo..siao..than the finger kip pt pt..sot ar..finger gt problem ar...siao de lo..than still warn mi tis warn mi tat..siao..no rights for her to sae tat lo..she wan warn mi..CAN OF COURSE..go b the GANG da jie first la..tok so much when the real ah lian diam diam..wah lao..sae liao very pek cek lo..forget abt it..fire very big..anyway..tks ya for sayanging mi..=p..at tat moment of time i really can tink of nth else but u..i don noe y everytime when things happen u r he first whom i tink of..only u can kip mi calm n feel safe..haiz..strange huhx..=p..than after tat went food culture..than after tat went to find him..bla bla bla..than after tat 9 something like tat go home..very tired..jus now almost fell aslp..lol..haiz..today can sae a memory of gd n bad..ya..anyway,tks for those who r there for mi..luv ya all much,.as for those who find trouble out of mi..pls la..grow up ya,..don b'cos of small small thing n so ji jiao..than wu dai ji bo dai ji jiu cum find ppl trouble..nt everyone have time to entertain u all tis kind of stupid n childish act de lo..can tell u all i scare of u all..but too bad..u all might b more scare of my GANG ...999..oh pls..than also learn from those "AH LIAN" many new words lo..LOL..anyway..exams jus 2 days away..kambateh..pia pia pia...nitex..muackzx
Don feel like blogging...LOL..hmm..exam is nearer n nearer..haiz..am i prepared ?? am i ready ?? will i b able to take up the challenge ?? Will i b able to make to sec 5 ?? i jus hope i cld..i must believe ya..k la..endure n have confidence ba..anyway..goin to do my work now le..jia you..kambateh..nitex..muackz..
Haiz..days r lesser n lesser..countin down to N lvl..left 3 days..omg..relaly nervous..but jus can try to maintain calm n do my very best for the last few days of revision..tats all i cld do for now..than today lessons were ok..haiz..had bio mock exam..my mcq jus gt 8/20,..the lowest for the whole level..haiz..relaly don noe wats got into mi today..gt so low marks..haiz..than Mtl also gt back prelim marks..still ok..my paper 2 jus pass..35/70..than ying yong wen gt 16/20..compo gt 33/50..than english also gt back mock exam paper 2..40/80..many ppl fail lo..cause tat day also lots of thing happen,,.than duistracted somehow..so friends..don b sad if get low marks..cause i noe u all can do it de..only tat tat day some prob tats y..ya..don worry..u all can make it de..than after sch..went to itc 1 to do the Ne quiz..than after tat went to lot 1..than went to food court..saw jof they all again..bla bla bla..than ate lunch..do some work..than went to walk walk abit..buy something..haha..someone bought the cross stitch..wonder tat person will b able to finish it up all BY "ITS" OWN or not..haha.. Than pei vinz went to LJS..than after tat saw charmaine..than went home le..tired..later goin to do my work..pia pia pia..haiz..very tired i noe..but..stil must endure..many ppl no go sch,,.aiyoyo..nvm..jus b bothered by my ownself hao le..ya..lol..tomoro long day again..argh..nvm..endure..wan ting.vinz..thanks for teaching mi maths wif lots of effort putted in..cause i noe i'm difficult to teach..yet u all still can teach mi till i can remember..tks lots..luv ya all..goin to buck up buck up n buck up...kambateh..muackz..friends..take care..exam is nearer n nearer..it is jus at the door now..jus waiting us to walk up to the door n open it up n tats it..ya.. muackz..
Today sch can b said sian also can b said enjoy..lolz..Mtl we went library..for wat ?? STUDY lo..DO work lo..haiz..but when teacher went to AVA to find miss LIm..than we went to take the board game n play..haha..than when teacher cum back we anyhow throw the game..than fly here fly there..haha..though teacher is very angry at us..but she still act act like clm n control herself..than we kip act act kip joke wif her..lolz..than after tat is history,.wow..sian lo,,.i almost fell aslp seh..so tired..than boring..mny ppl no go sch lo..than in order to kip mi awake..i kip on toking,.disturbing dor..than kip on do tis do tat..very noisy jiu dui le la..haha..than after tat went to lot 1..pei dor go LJS makan...than meet some..erm..very G.L de gals..very wat lo..sae la..sae some more..make sure ur mouth rot ar,..=p..than after tat went to library study..than saw jof,s.q,q.x,d.j..than don noe they do wat there la..jio gal again i suppose..lolz..than tat de jun kip di siao mi huhx..took the pic i put on the table than pian mi to look elsewhere..yuan lai is wan to take my pic..lolz..than vinz thought us bio..wow..pro huhx..if from now till the day of exam..i kip on revising n drilling all the bio notes in my head sure can do well de..vinz..i have confident in u tat u can help mi along..pls help mi..jus bio tis sub..though i might b difficult to teach..but i'll put in all the effort i cld to learn n absorb everything tis few days..than after tat went to LJS to pei him have dinner..than went yakun..than went mac..lolz..thru out..lots of joke.laughter..n stuffs..quite enjoy ba..though might b tired the whole day..but stil ok la...than go home..goin to do work later le..kambateh neh...really tense up now..jus counting down 6 days lo...argh...nevous seh..friends..jus buck up now..don tink of any negative thoughts now..ya..jia you..noe everyone is able to make it to sec 5 de ..best wishes..take care too ya..
Morning rain big big..than kena all wet even though had umbrella.cause 1 small umbrella share btw 2 big elephants.lolz.than reach sch.when toilet dry myslf abit.than tks vinz for the tie again.hmm.sry,.i don mean to borrow from u again n again.i realy cant find my tie.than if buy 1 more very bo hua..only nid to wear a few more times.than left 1 yr.nt worth.so sry.i'll try nt to borrow from u..TRY la..cause i noe u also don quite like ba..hmm..lessons were alright.during physics very tired le..almost fell aslp..wahahaha..ms ong no come..qi ji lo..haha...than the whole day were damn happy lo..really enjoyed...no nid to elaborate cause happy in heart jiu hao le..haha..really happy..my day is so bright though is raining today..haha..than after sch don noe gt IP or nt de..awhile sae gt..awhile sae cancel..diaox..than in the end don care than went lot 1..than went to walk walk..than go library study.do work..hmm..after tat went to yakun n LJS..pei him makan..than lots of fun in btw..haha..called home kena scold abit..but hmm..tat little bit of scoldin also nvm la..cause it cant cover the happinest today..haha..reach home..bath.than eat dinner.later goin do work liao..haiz..exam is damn near le lo..even the foyer also gt out a notice counting down to GCE N lvl exam..jus 7 days away..argh...heart is beating damn fast,,goin to drop out liao..lolz..k la.jus calm down..endure..jia you...NO MORE SLACKING !!!!! must make full use le..after exam wan do wat also can..but nt now...now is jus simply study study study..kambateh neh...
Ytd went to malaysia..some prob..haiz..than reach there already evening le..than things to settle..bla bla bla..than at nite..tok to my 2 biao di..many prob ar them..haiz..than sit by the bedside..4 am something than slp..tears were dropping n dropping..rolling down my cheeks..than eyes also quite swollen..than morning 7 something jiu wake up le..went to eat breakfast wif everyone..when biao jie wake mi up i still blur blur..cause too late slp liao than very very tired..than almost roll down the stairs..lolz.cause i slp at biao di room ma.than the bed is jus beside the stairs to walk down to living room..lolz..than after breakfast suppose to b coming back to s'pore de..but cause there's delay in something.than we have to stay there.than i spend some time doin my work there..than very tired..kip on falling aslp halfway thru when i do my work..than head is so pain like kena hit by hammer..i everytime nt enough slp jiu will headace than eyes abit swollen.. than at ard 1 or 2 somthing jiu leave le.. than reach s'pore jiu go eat.,.jiu go home le..reach home many things to pia.than later goin to finish up all the work..haiz..art ar art..die le la..i relaly scare i cant finish on time lo..i haven even started much on it..haiz..left 1 week lo..1 week lei......urgh...nvm..endure..believe in myself..hmm..u take care lei..N lvl 8 days away only..take gd care of urself..especially ur health..no health than forget bout anything else..tc ya..endurance...perservance...BEst wishes..
Morning woke up liao still happily thought of today's programme..goin out..bla bla bla..but when i jus woke up..mum told mi tat something happen to my grandparents..they met wif accident..n we all nid to go back to malaysia today...she sae everyone to b present..haiz..i really don noe wat to do..everytime when mum sae go back malaysia i sure will wan go..but tis time round i felt really uneasy..letting him happy happy wait for today.than in the end a sudden prob n everything is gone in the thin air..but sry..i really nid ur understanding..i really wish to pei u around.but i also nv expect tis kind of things to happen..for more..they r my grandparents..if they r nt i wont gib it a damn..but they r..so i have no choice..understand ? haiz..sry..really sry..other than sry i don noe wat to sae le..cause i noe u now is damn angry wif mi..but i really gt no choice..i myself also very fan..haiz..aiya..don noe la..if u don understand.n get upset wif mi..its ok..wo liao jie..jus b it ba..i now also cant do anything much..too much to fan about le.
In sch..erm..haiz..tat 2 gal still silent..or rather no tok tat much.donnoe la..than lessons were all ok..time is runnin out..exams jus 1 week more..haiz..pia ba..jia you..than during mtl..haiz..cant go AVA..because of the "HOD" thingy..bla bla bla..nvm..stay in class lo..than teacher kip[ on stressing us to do our work..than we kip distracting her..tok to her.joke wif her.giv her lame guess..haha..than in the end we still have to pass up 2 ying yong wen..1 compo..haiz..but teacher forget abt passin up le,..than we also act as if we forget..haha..but by monday have to pass up to her..P.e time also very fun lo..many laughter..haha...
In sch..erm..haiz..tat 2 gal still silent..or rather no tok tat much.donnoe la..than lessons were all ok..time is runnin out..exams jus 1 week more..haiz..pia ba..jia you..than during mtl..haiz..cant go AVA..because of the "HOD" thingy..bla bla bla..nvm..stay in class lo..than teacher kip[ on stressing us to do our work..than we kip distracting her..tok to her.joke wif her.giv her lame guess..haha..than in the end we still have to pass up 2 ying yong wen..1 compo..haiz..but teacher forget abt passin up le,..than we also act as if we forget..haha..but by monday have to pass up to her..P.e time also very fun lo..many laughter..haha...
Whole day ups n down..lessons still ok..than bio lesson whole period in toilet..cause ms wong nt feelin well than go home liao..than tok tok..than after sch..went to canteen to have lunch..quite funny wif the ppl whom is wif the same table wif mi..lolz..than when almost finish my lunch suddenly shirley came n ask mi to pei her go toilet..than saw her eyes watery like tat..than she ran to the toilet,..than i also ran..haha..than in the end she nv go to the toilet..she sat at the corridor behind the toilet there..than she cried til very jia lat..haiz..kena shock lo..than knew wat happen..than yp n jm came..than haiz..many conversation btw..than shirley n yp almost fight lo..than i also kena shout n scold by both of them..fine..nvm..i don understand anyone..its ok..no one eva understand anyone..than he still dare sae i didnt try to understand her..siao lo..how he noe i nv..if i really nv try understanding her.than i wont b there toking to them..i wont b there to care abt anything le..i wld slap rite in the face of theirs liao lo..pls la..don bother abt anything if u don understand anything,.u r jus simply a guy whom r so.......urgh...forget it..than i cried till very cham too..i press on the tap water at the sink there very long..than the water kip flowing like my tears lo..at tat moment i really feel really really sad..really..than sharon also kena scare tio..lolz.sry ya.cai hui.tks for being there..noe u all wan to noe wat happen..but at tat time i really don noe wat to sae.but tks for concerning mi.tks..than vinz came,..i really almost breakdown in front of him lo..when i see him i jus feel like my pillar of strength is there again..feel much more better..at least i noe there's someone there 4 mi again..=p..than after tat headace.haiz..everytime after cry jiu like tat..than after tat went to AVA for english mock exam..haiz..cant concentrate much ba..than after tat went to class than bla bla bla..than after everything settled..jus hope wheneva anyone encounter any problem jus b calm n everything will b settled..jus hope nth would b affected now..after tat went to lot1 ..meet biao jie.than actually wan eat sushi but aiya..tat shop hor..haiyo...than after tat went yakun eat.than went long john eat.than go buy bubble tea..than after tat went walkwalk..than saw bh..haha..promise to treat mi to k box de oh..don fan hui hor..than after tat went home..so tired..go home..do housework.watch tv.online.later goin to do my work le..chinese still gt 2 gong han n shi han to do..argh..siao liao la..lol.than hmm..overall today really gt happy n sad..jus hope everybody's fine.n is alright.let tomoro b a new begiining again ba.friends don have hatex.buddies no unhappinest.families no trouble.altogether..PEACE..no one is perfect in tis world.rememer tat,,.no one can fully understand anyone..b there when wheneva someone in family needs help..B THERE..luv u all the most..nv to b separated once n again..nv eva..we nid to b strong as a metal..ya..muackz..luv u guys..nth can eva separated us..We will grow up n understand a little bit more about one another after any unhappinest..nitec.
Morning crazy crazy de..lolz..than nth much la..during MTL we actually shld go back to class de..than we went to AVA to join them watch the show instead of goin back to class..haha..than after tat our class cum to AVA..nask us out..than we all don wan to leave..haha..than teacher ask all of us to go n get a worksheet n do n pass up by friday..haiz..sian..still hab to do work..sob sob..lolz..no choice..have to aim for a A1 or A2..jia you ba..than during mtl many "conflicts:"..aiyo..so ma fan lo..tat guy also de lo..so damn childish..sot de..don sae anything don have any comments don have any eye contact jiu no prob liao ma..aiyo..each other step back jiu can liao ma..aiya..don noe la..guys nowadays..the whole day de class still ok la..haha...nt bad..in a gd mood the whole day..nt much disturbing things tat affect my mood..lolz..than after sch went to lot1 ..went had lunch..than tok.play.joke.chat.lolz.than go walk.than go library study..do work..lolz..vinz. bought new bag.new specs.he sae wan buy new pencil case.new everything..lolz..you qian ren jiu shi zhe yang de..haha..than in library many things occur..haha..so funny lo..lol..than 6 something jiu go home le..tired indeed..than go home..went to do housework than go cook dinner..than do my work..watch tv..like tat lo.than 10 pm online..haha..like tat lo..nth much..than now headace le..goin slp soon..hehex..wateva happinest shall from now on kip in my heart n minds..nt goin to write out as its nt goin to last long..i m really glad to see all those feelin words which cum from the bottom of ur hearts..true n sincere...lurb..muackz..nitex..take care..tomoro gt eng mock exam after sch..haiz..bo bian..jia you ba..muackz muackz..
Last nite very late than slp..than suddenly at midnight..dreamt lots of things..than suddenly woke up..than b4 tat i was dreaming of biao jie toking on the phone,,than when i open my eyes..really she is toking on the phone..than she seems so unhappy..haiz..but tat time i also blur blur..than went back slp again..than morning go sch..still ok la..during mtl than we went to AVA again..woohoo..joined them watch the show..we today can go cause our chinese teacher nv cum today..tats y..haha..than some sort of unhappinest..than after tat went to history..haiyo..so sian lo...than kena sae by ms ong abt my attitude n many many things..than actually we sit behind the lo..than ms ong ask us to move in front n sit beside jy..argh..sian diao..cant do wat i wan..cannot lack..sian..jus rite in front of ms ong only lo..sian..than after sch..hmm..kena shock..noe today everyone also nt in gd mood.include mi..so i understand,jus can put a smile on face..than haiz..2nd time so fierce kena shout at..at tat moment very shock than my mind immediately blank..than my smile frozen..than don noe wat to do..jus can kip on walkin downstairs with a mind don noe tinking wat..lolz..than reach canteen sit there..than go toilet..than tears dop dop dop..drop down..haiz..really sad..i jus cannot take it when ppl raise their voice..very sensitive..tats nt wat i wan..but i cant control..sry..but everyone shld now i hate being shouted at..no one likes..but i understand la..he nt in gd mood..nvm la..if i tok back jus now..more cham lo..later explode..jus now is minor explode..if i sae somemore is MAJOR explode le lo..lolz..than after tat vinz.shirley.wan ting n dor go home..than i myself go study..sat outside cca room de table n chair there..than wif minds filled wif many thoughts..than start revising abit..start doin work..than go home..than felt very tired.go slp..than 7 something or 8 wake up than go cook dinner for daddy..than online..than watch tv..later goin to do my work liao..many things happen again..everytime i said de thing always the same de..so tink u also memorize liao..so hope u understand it..than i said liao.promise nt to force u anymore further..noe u r very xin ku..noe u feel very tight up..noe u r goin to break down liao..so..i wont force u anymore in anything..so tat it make u happier..wateva i claim jus treat tat as i m writing on a wishing list to the santa claus n which will nv b fulfill ba..haiz..jus go on..than jus hope tat everything goes well from on..jus concentrate on my studies now ba.peng you men..jia you ba..
Today..sch,..still ok..haha..during bio class..jj gave mi a pen..a lao ya de pen..ball point pen..which cost $2.50 for 1 lo..i go popular can buy 1 box liao..lolz..than lesson were okok lo..but history..aiya,..many thingy la..than very stress lo..kip on gibing us work to do n complete..than in the end no time to mark n go thru..siao de lo..wat shit is tis man..sot..i noe she do all tis cos of our OWN GD..but i don tink is the way ba..we stll have others sub de lo..we nt in a history sch lo..we nt everything abt history lo..we still gt other sub de lo..haiz..don noe la..jus hav to endure..haiz..than after sch..immediately go history class again..it is an extra class lo..haiz..than after tat straight away go maths IP..argh...siao liao la...than band 4 n 5 combine..lol..cause band 5 also nt much ppl ma..than vinz same class wif mi..lolz.than after tat pei serene go yew tee take her contact lens..than after tat went back to cck...than went watch
Hmm...update on ytd..hmm...morning till afternoon...erm..still ok la...slp till very late..slp till noon..than wake up..than ate breakfast cum lunch..than went to watch tv..than chat wif families..tok many many many things..than after tat went out..meet him..than go B.P..than go makan..ice cream !!! lolz..than after tat went back to cck..than go buy something jiu go back le..nth much..but inded quite happy ba..hehex..Smilex..
Add to ytd post : [160906.Saturday]
Hope today will b the same as ytd..ytd de happinest..nt sadness...nt boringness..jus the simple happy..jus the simple joy..jus the simple smilex..haha..morning wake up early than went to wash all my bed sheets..than ate breakfast..than go online..so bz looking searching uploading downloading bla bla bla the songs..lolz..than nose bleed..haiz..than my shirt is all blood..than i go toilet..than sneeze than the mirror also gt blood ..looks like the ghost movie ya..haha..than went to bath n change out of clothes..hmm..later goin out ya..haha..so happy./but don noe go where..so confuse..lolz..hmm..he today morning also very nice neh,..haha..seems so gentle..seems quite cheerful..likes the attitude..than he still can hao hao tok to mi..still can hao hao reply mi..than when i tell him abt the bloggy thing he still can hao hao tell mi..than nt wif any vulgar..nt wif any anger..feels really gd..jus feel gd wheneva novulgar is involve..haha..hope later will b the same oh..haha..k la..later in the night zai update hao le..hehex..hope everyone enjoy their saturday mornin.afternoon.night..haha..
Ytd post..hmm..ytd a short day..but after sch stil have history IP..than during classes were still ok..chinese went to AVA..haiz..b4 tat went back to class to noe our results for prelim..hiaz..really damn sad..paper 2 i only gt 35/70..it is jus a passin marks lo,,.haiz..really sad..i really cant afford to fail my chinese or rather jus pass it,..really cant..i don wan..i hate tis grade..the others in class gt at least 38 near 40..or most of them gt 40 something than shirley gt the highest..50 something..i really very sad lo..haiz..but wat everyone said to mi is all the same thing..jia you lo..pass wat..nvm de la..haiz..but tat is nt wat i wan,.u all noe ????!!!!!! haiz..even teacher n my friends all gt shock abt my results..i m the last few in my class lo..eevry time get first few..now last few..nt sae i wan to boast..but it is the truth lo..haiz..than after tat went to AVA lo..watch the show..erm..watch half half only..cause fell aslp..than wake up watch awhile than go back slp again..lol..than it was raining almost the whole day..after tat went to canteen for lunch break..than went to history IP..than actually teacher wan us to conplete SBQ which is abt 45 min//but evryone sae tired tired..don wan don wan..than very very noisy than in the end teacher ok la..haha..than end quite early..than after tat went to find him..than he called mi than tat "idiot"[jus jk] sheng qin take the phone n sae..lets go drink oil together...urgh..kick his back side ar,,lolz..than have happy n down moments in the whole day ba..but in the end i still find it happy..than went LJS..than help biao jie da bao jiu go home le..haha..than at nite..someone is totally different..haha..don noe y..i jus felt tat..i found a happier him..i sense a cheerful him..i feel the smile of his..than the words the ways he tok to mi is so pleasant..really feel good..but every time on off de..lolz...than like tat lo..very late than slp..than msg msg halfway while waiting for hs reply.though he reply very fast..but i also fell aslp very fast..lolz..too tired le..than like tat lo..a happy day indeed...
Sch were quite fine..nv care so much tats y nth much to trouble abt..whole dae feel like drifting away from them..don feel like toking..mayb pain ? or mayb mood in the playground playing swing ? don noe la..jus feel like kiping quite..than watching ppl..ern..sometimes it feels quite gd ya..but sry if i were to gib no respond to anyone..jus don feel like it..someone told mi tat there is no more the previous d.s.k.y...ya..tats true..it is being buried long time ago..of course she wont feel it la..she had sooo many friends ard her..than another one everyday dar here dar there..no nid friends le..i understand la..have bf liao is always like tat de..definitely neglect friends..as u noe bf can ovretake every single friends..but once break..no more liao lo..cum back find friend liao lo..haiz...sometimes really don noe la..wats the problem wif anyone..isnt it fine if everyday to b happy..happy go lucky..i noe there wont b happinest every single day..every day also will see unhappy things goin on n on..unhappinest is more than happinest...isnt tat terrible..n pls..nt i don noe or nv feel anything..i do..i jus choose to kip quiet for the time being ba..there r more serious n impt things for mi to settle rite now..compared to those friends or wateva shit thingy la..n pls..noe ur limits..noe ur doings..don cross over the line lo..i have eyes to see..don gib mi tat sucky attitude when u urself r in wrong..enough is enough i tell u..nv eva treat mi as a spare tyre lo..when no ppl to b wif u liao than cum find mi..stop it la..u hurt alot of ppl u noe..i raelly don noe how to tell u lei..everytime tell u liao than u get angry..wats the point..when ppl tell u something than accept it n try to adapt to it..than try to tink whether is it really like tat nt..don everytime gib face..than once ppl tell u their tinking than u jus sae ya la ya la my fault my fault la.sry k..wats the pt of all those anger words..no one is blaming u n u r there blaming urself n makes ppl feeel guilty..siao..if one day i really had enough..i sure slam the door rite in ur face de lo..make sure u wake up..even sometimes ppl tell mi my mistake i also try to tink abt it..n feel the nids to change n change slowly..jus make tis clear..nv try to b funny lo..my limit to u is at the top of the world liao lo..than after sch..went to lot 1..than went put deposit for vinz spects..than go eat at kfc.damn piss off lo..wan sit there also cant.don even feel like sitting there lo..no topic..out of point..don even understand or noe wat they saes,.so boring..than after tat went walk walk..than go home le..headace..really very pain..thought go slp awhile wake up jiu hao liao..but no..does nt help..wake up liao more pain..pain till my sweat kip coming out..u can imagine how pain it is ba..haiz..than haiz don noe la..recently as if many things is happening again n again..on n on..jus hope faster exam..than go work..than spend every hr working without any worries..tomoro is nt a short day..by rite is..but ms ong wanted us to pia history..after sch still have IP from 1 to 3 pm..worst than normal day lessons..haiz..jus hope my headace will b gone soon..feel really terrible lo..head so pain than cant do anything..sian de lo..haiz..vinz also nt happy..noe he suppress his feelin for very long le..hiaz..i noe is difficult for him..i noe he is xin ku..stop it ba..stop suppressing than in the end it b'cums a time bomb n bomb out anytime..i noe it makes mi feel gd wheneva u r in gd mood..but since it makes u hurtz so much,.rather u stop it than one day u exploded n bomb everyone into pieces..mayb try to b more hack care..erm..or shld i sae..jus make urself comfortable in every matter..if nt comfortable than jus act the normal way..argh,,don noe wat i toking la..jsu take care la..haiz..headace liao u still cum ask mi stupid question..!!u r really a person i cant tolerate sometimes u noe..argh.. nvm.. no hatex no worries.
Crazy in sch..erm..or rather almost whole day..than during mtl als nth much to do..than were very noisy..bio went to lab..but no practical la..lolz..than have to complete the fajar paper..than during english..listen to the teacher tok awhile than she go mark her paper le.than we nth to do..than stomach pain..also very tired..than slp lo.than after sch went to lot 1..eat..walk..walk.than go eye's optical shop..vinz n yan wan new spects..i went to gai kiang wear spects.recently feel like wearing spects so much lo..sot le..hhaa..than likes the frameless de..to mi might b nice,.but to others might nt..so....hmm..like tat lo..haiz..but he looks gd in almost al the spects he wore ba.only final decision is he choose..erm..or mayb contact wld b nice too..cause eye so big don wan go SHOW OFF will b a waste seh..haha.gt electricity de neh..will sot eveyone gal de..haha..haiz..than when abt to go toilet..than turn back see my skirt..kena lo..!!! wow..sian..cum tat one really damn ma fan lo..than somemore no bring extra de.haiz..than quickly went to toilet..haiz..overflow lo..haiz..than lucky my bag long enough..lolz..than try to cover.lucky also nt a big patch lo..lol.than pei li go buy penknife..for special purpose of course..lolz..u noe.i noe.she noe.she noe.she noe.she noe.he noe can liao lo..haha..than go home le.haiz.than the whole day kip on awhile pain awhile nt pain..sian lo..still cramp..than like ruan ruan de..as if no energy like tat..haiz.sry if i sae wrong thingy or gib face.cause when pain really wont even tok de..sry peeps..i ren le..its far too pain..i today can laugh out already broke records le..haha,.,.no la..jk..but today relaly feel great..kip on feel like laughing smiling.mayb see him gt smile i also feel like smiling..haha..he's so cute..than in food court jus now also tok many thingy.lol.than also saw sheng qin.hong peng.joffre.qi xing.than tok many LAME things lo.....lolz..fun la..anyway..really..today i felt happy..really..but stomach pain.no feelin ar..haha.no la..he's de main idea ba..hehex...hmm..anyway,..sry to make u angry ar..now u ren a few weeks or mths liao..erm,..but nan mian de ba..so sry ar..jus hate the "cum cum"..cum tat one so tao yan..so pain.sometimes la..sian lo..than somemore sure mood swing..swing till ppl house..than also makes the ppl mood swing to other country..swing into a pot of hot curry..sian lo,.haiz..but wan control also abuit diffivult ba..when too pain really cant sae anything de..than will also pek cek.hmm..haiz..somemore will have pimples..somemore will have to spend money...aiya..very ma fan jiu dui le la..haiz..than go home..goin rest..too pain le..than lata goin to do work..than don noe liao..lolz..hope everything's alright ba..take care..
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Early morning kena hit by all the photos paste on my room wall..argh..than i hack care continue slp..cause a few mins goin to wake up le..lolz..than in sch..erm..ok la..than mtl all combines in the AVA..than ONG SHENG QIN..u very clever hor..sae y express also wif u all..CANNOT AR !!! lolz..than watch shows..erm,..still ok la..than haiz..knew half of my chinese prelim results..haiz..a digit starting wif a 2..haiz.others gt 3..really sad lo..i really cannot let my chinese fail de lo..i will nv allow it to happen de lo..haiz..really very bu fu qi..haiz..must buck up,jia you jia you jia you..lolz..than during history..nth to do.than write letter...lolz..than ms ong gt cum sch but no cum class..lol..also gd la..gt free period..than haha..many funny thingy from a gal from history class..haha,..than after sch..erm,...go lot 1..pei vinz n charmaine eat lunch..than rush home..bath le,..jiu go out..than went ajisen..than interview..than many many info..haha...ming jie n cai hui is to go bugis de aji tei..sort of the same as ajisen..but more high class..than i m goin to bishan junction 8..hope it will go well ba.but as for now shld concentrate on exam...kambateh neh,...haha..than after tat went to walk walk shoppiong wif cai hui..than she bought a shirt for mi..erm..i will return u something de..i nt use to it la..haha...anyway tks..than abt 7 liao jiu go yishun meet up wif biao jie..than walk walk..tok tok..eat eat..than waited for mummy to finish work...than dad fetch us home..almost fell aslp in dad's car..than reach home..online..than tis n tat..oh ya..qian wen..don b so sad le..i might nt noe wat is happening excatly to u rite now..i may nt understand ur feelin..i may nt relaly uinderstand u..but wat i wan to sae is..nv eva use hurting ur ownself as a excuse to avoid everything..nv eva..kkz..u hurt urself is jus like hurting ur family..friends..ur luv ones...whoeva who is concern..if u don tink of urself than pls tink of others too..nt only u 1 person gt heart..others also have..k..i sae all tis nt b'cos i meant to make u uncomfortable..jus wanna to let u noe tat hurting urself doesnt mea n tat every things is solve..k,.haiz..endure ba..there will always b a ending to every matter,...kkz..erm,..as for now..concentrate on ur coming exam..jia you..12 more days only..k la..end le..buaiz
Morning meet jie downstairs..than actually sae wan to walk to interchange together de.cause can save bus fare..but too bad,..late liao.by the time walk there already late liao.than bo bian took bus lo..than reach sch..erm..ok ok la..morning went to Chi Prelim..than the teacher forget gt 4NA'O' LO..so sickening lo..sian diao...than when it is abt to start liao we were sill outside the hall lo..no one ask us go in..THEY FORGET US LE..URGH,.,...lolz..than when we went in we were damn angry lo..than aiya nvm la..than start the paper..erm..today de paper ok lo...hope can score well...than after exam 12 something only,.than we have t go back class for lesson..2 more periods to go b4 finish sch..than we were like don wan to go back lo..than we were standing at near the canteen toilet there toking..dragging the time..haha..than awhile later ming jie n aloysius came down.than they sae wan go back...haven even finish lesson lo..cause their teacher nt here today ma...than he very funny lo tat ming jie..than in the end most of them go home..than mi..shirley n dor go back to class..than physics lesson..than gt worksheet,..awhile later jiu finish lesson liao..than went to sit at foyer for long time..than pei charmaine go detention..than bla bla bla..than 7 soemthing go home..than cook dinner..than watch tv.than pack bag..argh !!! sian..msn cant go in..siao de..don noe wat happen...hope tomoro can b ready to use ba..than chat on phone wif vinz for damn long..than nv notice the time PASSED so fast lo...wow..so fast 12 am liao..i cant believe it lo..lolz..k la..nitex..
Morning wake up liao go meet vinz.than pei him go breakfast.than go swimming..many ppl today ya..than swim swim swim swim.....bla bla bla..than 12 soemthing than go bath..than go lot 1 meet wen..than go interview at LJS...than wait for the manager wait quite long..ate 2 meal liao than cum..lolz..than interview..wow..the salary very low lo..$3.20 only.i b'cos gt work b4 than giv higher.nomal is jus $3.00 lo..wah piang..lolz.than we'll stay in contact..than went to walk round lot1.find jobs.quite a lot ba..haiz.many many things la..bla bl abla./.mayb jus skip the chapter..than modd something wrong..skip again..noe myself can le..but ok le,..than sit at a place sit stare stone tok play..than go home le..lol..than reach home..tired seh.than online.prepare for tomoro..haiz..k la..gd luck for tomoro prelim jiu dui le..jia you ba..nitex
Feel like goin to swim tomoro..haiz..tat de place for mi to rest.to relax myself..n cost 80 cent to go in..stil ok ba..jus wan to enjoy mysel..tink thru..reflection..haiz...swimming swimming..don noe y jus feel like swiiming now n then..haiz..
Morning woke up wash up jiu go eat breakfast..than after tat went online..than go prepare jiu go out le..mit qw than take lrt to bangkit..bbq held at constance condo.their church de..than reach there..erm..the event..ok lo..xi guan le ba..cause is jus like when we GB go to church..than after tat 3 soemthing they jiu start eat some of the ready-to-eat food..than after tat zai start bbq..foods were alright..anyway..tks for all the preparation ba..than 7 something jiu leave le..don wanna stay le..i very tired le..than somemore i still wan go find jobs..than asked them if they wanna go back nt..than they go wif mi lo..than meet vinz on lrt..than took back to cck..than went to food court..than vinz n charmaine had their dinner..than after tat went to walk.than went to 4th floor..erm..than bla bla bla..than after tat mi n qw went to find jobs..than they 2 went to find their entertainment...haiz..really hope jobs will b coming my way..i really cannot take it le..i relaly had stupid thoughts..being so stupid to tink of all tat..haiz..but i reallyvery tired of it le..i really cant tink of anything else..i noe it isnt a right way to tink of it..sry.i'll get it out of mi..haiz..even now ask mi go b maid i also will..haiz..than after tat went home..b4 tat dad called n ask mi to buy an eye-drop home.cause he nids it..but i don even had any money..really very bu shuang n feel so sad lo..last time wateva they wan they jus call n it will b delivered home..but now..haiz..than called kor.he still at plaza singapura n wont b back so fast.than call hy she no pick up phone.tink she working ba,.haiz.the eye-drop is jus $3.30..i cant even afford it now..jus wat had happen to yu shian..aiyo..last time i still can buy a dozen of it..but now..even a drop also cant afford lo..haiz...than also don noe who to borrow money from..i really feel so paiseh to borrow money from someone..but at times really don noe wat to do..haiz..everyday i jus survive in the world without money..it hurtx n shuckx...haiz..jus hope it ends fast..than bo bian go home.sry dad..than go bath..online..rest n thought bout tis n tat..haiz..
Morning 9am wake up.tha hd breakfast than went out..dad drove mum to work liao than i go help deposit cheque.than in the end gt some prob.sae i deposit wrong place.lolz..than dad went do something than cum back cck fetch mi again.than drove to jurong east..than went to the samsung company to repair my flip bao bei phone.haiz..but jus changin the LCD jiu cost $3oo dollar something le..than the person also sae nt worth it lo.must well go buy a new phone..haiz.than bo bian..than went to imm walk walk.than go fix mummy watch..than went to west mall..dad went to settle some of his hp thingy..than after tat went back to cck..than go to the normal shop to ask how much if to repair the hp..than cost $100 soemthing./.tat person also sae nt worth it..haiz..than sell also no one wans..sian..don noe how le la..than after tat pei dad go eat lunch.than meet up wif shirley..er..tks for the $5 for topping up my ez-link card..i'll pay u back as soon as possible..haiz..than took 190. than along the way wan ting n valerie board the bus..reach orchard..went taka..than walk here walk there..saw things i like..but jus remember bout my pockets,.haiz..dropped the idea..see see jiu hao..saw things which i feel like buying for my friends..but also jus remember..my pockets again...haiz..than after tat they went to eat..than valerie noe my prob..than she sae she treat mi eat first as to bless mi..than i was rather touch..i promise to treat her back when my problem is all solve..cause i noe she's there n understand mi when i'm in crisis..
Morning wake up at 6 something..than go toilet wash up..than go back slp again..than 7 something my favourite loud alarm song woke mi up again..lolz..than get prepared jiu go out meet up wif vinz n dor..mood might b quite unpleasant..at tat moment jus feel like crawling n hiding inside a hole...nt lettin anyone see mi n tok to mi as i might blow out..haiz..bo bian..than reach swimming complex..went to change out..than went swim..wan hui n her mum came..than swim swim..tok tok..erm..still ok la..anyway i go there n swim for my own sake ma..no matter how furious things gonna happen is also none of my business as i'm goin on my own sake..no one points a gun on my head..so still ok la..than enjoy myself quite alot..haiz..but my swimming timing really drops very far..last time can b calculated in seconds..but now..1 min..haiz..gonna buck up..gonna swim again one of the in tis week...erm..after swim went to lot 1..than buy bubble bubble tea..lolz.than went walk walk..very tired liao..than somemore no money no tok..than suggested to go home..sry ya vinz..nt i don wan to pei u go here n there..jus we might b tired today..than somemore i don like goin out when i don have money..tats mi..sry..hope u;ll understand..than unhappinest brought over vinz..his family..himself..jus hope he will b alright n walk on..even if no more energy..i'll cum n piggy back u n bring u thru...tats a promise..n i've been wanting to tell u..kors r nt everything..there r still others who care more than they do...b more aware of tat someone ba...haiz..u might get furious of some of the things i said..but jus wanna noe how i felt everytime..as u said b4..no matter wat..jus sae it out to u..tats wat i;m doin now..so hope u can slowly undeerstand ba..than go home liao very tired than go slp..than wake up..cook dinner..than watch tv..online..chat..bla bla bla..than do housework..haiz..vinz so unhappy today..or rather everyday..but jus hope things might change ba..he also have to depend much on himself ba..haiz..nvm..than later gonna slp le.gonna go out tomoro ba..wanna go find job..mayb..or..haiz..don noe la..
Morning woke up by the alarm from my hp..put the alarm signal song as "hui dao guo qu"..than the music will get louder n louder as time drags..than after tat wake up than eat breakfast..prepare liao jiu go sch..than went limbang..than nv thought he leave limbang le..than go walk 1 round than go back sch again..went to library..study awhile..than after tat jiu go for ms ong s.s IP..than teacher go thru some impt thingy..than the lesson end at 12 pm..so tat we cld take a break in btw..than went mini mart..limbang..than go back sch again..didnt hab proper meal..all tibits..than rest awhile..exam jiu start le..wished everyone good luck..than enter the examination hall...Today is S.S 'n' lvl exam..haiz..every teacher told their student tat merger n seperation wont cum out..but it really cum out in SEQ..omg..shucks..so damn funny lo..everyone didnt even care to bother to read up on tat..but it came out..lolz..than overall still ok la..have confident in failing..lolz..nv pass b4 ma..aiya..nvm la..jus hope other sub can do well..jia you ba..after tat went to lot 1..than go foodcourt..than go walk walk..jiu go home le..very tired..than go online..eat dinner..haiz..tomoro planx for swimming don noe how le la..so pek cek lo..wateva lame reason i gt from every single person..really piss mi off man ! jus hate to decide on a thing..jus hate to plan something as it nvs goes well..sianx..lucky today gt vinz there to help mi thruout..cause everytime he is also de one who wil sae don noe..or anything..than make mi worst..but tis time different..he helps mi settle everything...with a gd attitude..character..words..no temper..no vulgur..isnt it good..haiz..jus hope its nt jus for today ba..=x..sian lo..really..tonight i feel really terrible..really..jus don even feel like toking to anymore..cause gt a feelin once i tok than i wil explode n everyones get affected..haiz..wateva i said will said the wrong thing..haiz..don noe how la..so confuse minded...anyway..tks vinz..don care le la..who wan go jus go..anyway i go there for my own sake..anyway..no ones will noes or guess wat i m tinking nor wat i wanted to express out..haiz..jus live on...
Morning woke up at ard 8 something...than feel like no energy like tat..than ate breakfast..eat medicine..than go back slp again..feel reall dizzy..than 9 seomthing shirley call mi ask mi goin back to sch nt..sry.cant pei u go back..cause i really tired..than went back slp..slp till 12 or 1 something..than received sms..than go bath..feel really weak..head very dizzy..than also quite hungry..than very bu shu fu jiu dui le..than went out..went to yakun to find vinz..wen n charmaine..than sort of happy n unhappy..haiz..than after tat went to kfc..than see they eat..haiz..i really feel so unwell lo..haiz..than kip on like blur image..mayb o the medicine ba..than after tat they go home liao..wait for mum..than pei her go eat..than after tat went home le.very tired..later gonna go study le..study for tomoro 'N' lvl social studies..jia you n good luck for everyone ba..kamabateh neh..take care lei..best wishes..
Morning wake up liao than went to have breakfast..than go see doc..waited very very very very long..even when taking medicine also very slow lo..their process like the tortise lo..haiz..than went home,,quickly charged my hp..no batt le..than prepare..than go out le..nt feelin so well from morning..haiz..headace..dizzy..haiz..
Woke up ard 7 something..than mum n dad go out liao...than wash up than go eat breakfast...than online..tok tok..haiz..some unhappinest ba..than ard 10 something than go out wif kor...went to pasir ris..went to tzu chi for blood donation.,.than reach there..so anxious lo..so nervous too..than saw the needle..tellin myself to b brave..feel like fainting seh..lolz..than very fast lo..a few mins than a packet of blood is produced..lolz..than after tat shi gu gib mi n kor hot milo n some biscuit to eat..than the nurse gib mi pill to eat to don noe add my iron ar..lolz..than the nx donation will b at november 25..goin to donate again..than december gt a blood test for donating bone marrow..will b there to test my blood too..lolx..Saving ppl lifes is wat everyone shld do..cause we might jus need someone help one day..anyway..it wont do us any harm ma..haha..encourage n hope the friends ard mi can help out n do donate blood too..than after tat took mrt back to cck...started to feel unwell somehow..head dizzy..headace..than tat ah kor of mine..alighted at kenbangan to meet his gf..haiz..than mi alone took the mrt back to cck..than meet vinz..than went walk..than went k box..than sing without using mike..we didnt touch the mike today lo..lolz..than was so cold..after tat went to yakun eat..than took cab go home..Vinz sae he feels happy today..hope he is really happy..tats all i wished for...he happy..than i also happy..haha..
A new mth had cum..now ish already September..A new start..A new chapter of life..A stress period...Endure...
The way u tok to mi today r nt very pleasant..Nt wat i wish to hear ba..haiz..but i can understand la..Its mi in wrong first..nvm..jus hope my unlucky cld end by tonight..don wish to continue anymore..it hurtz mi...It doesnt bring mi any gd nor does it bring mi any happinest...Wat to do...i jus can only endure thru...haiz....Recently really don noe wats gt into mi,..jus can bear wif it..Jus hope tat u all can understand mi..Bear wif mi for the period of time ba..i'm sry..
All i wan is jus the understandin from u all..
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