Tuesday, November 07, 2006
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Long long time no blog le..hmm..rather miss my blog ya..many feelin n thoughts not written down..everyday jus kip inside..everyday so early go out so late cum back..don even haven the time to rest how can it b possible to have the time to blog..lolz..Hmm...recently still ok ba..so far so gd..i tink so la..haiz..many up n downs..but really sometimes bother mi till i wan go suicide ar..feel so pek cek sometimes..my up n down nt everyone noes..or rather nt let them noe so nt to let them worry..but sometimes i really cnanot tahan liao than after work go home if they haven turn in than i will automatically break down in front of them..store too long liao than really damn sad liao..than see love ones sure will break down infront of them de..at least i can feel the warmth n luv from them..Friends r too bz for mi to reach for..other than HIM..the only him,,.lolz..He is my 24 hrs doctor..i'm almost sick everyday..so i'm use to it to "visit" his clinic often..His medicine is so powerful..jus his simple facial expression can make mi cheer up..jus his simple warmth hand can make my whole body warm n make my heart cum into a piece again..n jus his shoulder make mi feel tat i'm being held up once again after having a great fall..yes..its him..the only him...Wheneva i'm down i jus feel lyk him being by my side..nt anyone else..mayb yes..but i jus wish everytime he is the first to reach mi side..haiz..i'm sry..i noe u ar also facing lots of prob although u r staying home almost everyday..but i'm sry i don have much time to kip u acc..hope u understand..He is de one erasing all the unhappinest of mine..Haiz..now i finally noe tat singaporean is really rich seh..almost all go ajisen eat de all use master card..or visa or wateva card de la..of course nt phone card la..lol.than very less ppl pay by cash..if is pay by cash than it will b $100 note or $50..lolz..rich ppl..than so many ppl so bear to eat a meal for over 20 or 30 dollar..lolz..Today saw pan ling ling the mediacorp artist n her whole family..lolz..manager gave thm 10% discount..lolz..than..wat else.....hmm...oh ya..met quite a few stupid kuku customer..idiot seh,..think they r only the customer in the shop when there r still long queue outside waiting to b sit..than hurry tis hurry tat..they also have to wait for their order to b ready de ma..nan dao they wan eat uncook noodle or food meh..siaox..if rush time than see many ppl than don cum tis kid restaurant eat la..go those foodcourt upstaris than can sit there whole day without waiting for ur food to b serve..somemore self service lo..lolz..haiz..but CUSTOMER R ALWAYS RIGHT..tats the thing i most unhappy abt lo..idiot..hiaz..though i sae so much..but customer r still rite..no matter how much we argued..even when sometimes is customer de wrong than also we kena scold by kitchen n manager..haiz..nonid further explanation de..cause they will nt give it a damn lo..haiz..no choice,.working is like tat de..so....bear wif it lo..everydya jus can tell myself to endure thru endure thru..everyday as long as i noe he's there i have tat slimmer strength to endure thru till closing..can u imagine workng from early in the morning..do opening of the shop till closing of the shop..how stress it is..how difficult it is..a machine will also break down la..nt sae a human being..hiaz..there's still many unhappinest ba..jus tat it is almost forgotten..too much to b written down,..so jus let it pass n start anew..haiz..endure ba..tink tis shld b the way of working ba..How i wish somtimes i cld jus open up ur heart n mind to see wat u actually r tinking..Pls don cum back hurting mi once more.since u noe u hurtz mi once..n since u noe i'm very soft hearted..i'm easily touch by any nice wording..nv cum back to mi..y is it always like tat..the person i hope for i wish for will nv b there,..whereas the person i on even wan to care abt is there..haiz..don noe la..i'm nt goin to let myself regret anymore..no more..I've said many times..LOOK CAREFULLY INTO UR OWN HEART..ASK UR HEART WAT EXACTLY U WAN..Tired tired tired..damn tired..stress over customer complain..when i did no wrong..if i really in wrong i sure will admit n be scolded..but the prob is i didn't..haiz..than cashier thingy..losing money everyday..every day closing when we count the final amt there is large amt of losses..haiz..than manager sae from tomoro onwards if tis continue to goes on than we all really have to pay le..divide into all the ppl who can b incharge of the cashier..haiz..really had to b extra careful..than somemore sometimes have to see the customer face..see the kitchen chief face..see friend face..Vinz..sry..nt i don wan tok to u..is jus tat my batt is really low..than somemore i nid to settle something wif mi manager..haiz..i'm really stress out..sry if i were to have attitude..i really cannot control sometimes..haiz..[Love n Miss all of u..i really do..][Take care everyone..]
[Stay in contact ya..muackz..]
Tracy..4eva the only one.. oO Pls b there still to hold my hands n guide mi thru.I nid U Oo
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