Ur sickness is still wif u..i don noe when u will change it..i don noe when u will get better..i don even noe wat u exactly wan..i realy don noe..i thought u really had change..but indeed u did not..i realise it recently..haiz..wat promise had u made to mi..do u exactly remember not ??!?! haiz..i really don noe wat to do le la..B ur real self then..i'm washing my hand off u soon..if i cld..take care then..
I dont need a friend who cant accept mi for who i m..i nid a friend who can understand my surrounding..problems..n help mi thru it...n not those who will jus look on the outside n not the inside..friends jus need understanding to get along well..tink for others before self..
Oh..btw..hope u r fine by now..noe tat u r sick n also not in a good mood..hmm..everyone have tis day,,.i understand..mi too ma..but nvm la..endure over jiu hao le..jia you..yong yuan zhi ci ni !!take care..
Sch were still ok la..only tat some prob ba,.but during some lesson can sae have some sort of fun ba..than at about 1 pm..went to foyer to gather..than set off to ngee ann poly for a visit..hmm..on the bus they opened the potato chips n eat..gt 3 packet..than nigel kip on snatching from the ppl at the front so tat we gals behind cld eat dao..haha..nice of u huhx..lolz..anyway..reach there..than went to their lecture hall..than after tat went out..free time le..haha..than met vinz..went to walk ard together..went to nursing course the first..haha...than vinz wan life sceince jus beside only..haha..than after tat went their canteen..wow,..so cheap lo..all poly de food all cheap cheap de..than something happen..than all kena shock..hmm..anyway..went to walk..than after tat have to gatehr back le..though might b short abit in time..but still ok la..not much to explore actually la..haha..than went back sch,...go take bag..1 of my sista cried..haiz..b'cos of wat...bf thingy..haiz..don noe la..i cant b bothered too much too..than after tat went to sit under blk..she cried again..cryliao stop..cry liao stop..cry liao stop..haiz..than after tat walk to lot 1..finally the couple is fine..haiz..than went to eat at 'Let's eat' than ate so many thing..very full..went to walk..don noe y suddenly feel so tired..mentally n physically,,mayb 1 of the reason is i eat medicine ba...than another is kena influence..than mayb jus happent to b unhappy lo..lolzx..than haiz..after tat jiu go home le..seems like everyones in a bad mood ya,..don noe who to tok to le..i don wan to add onto others burden when they themselves carry 1 at tat time..haiz..see them so unhappy i also feel xin ku,.no matter how difficult..i still have to face them in a positive manner..have to act like a clown..haiz..i jus can b myself infront of him..haiz..sometimes i jus feel so sad,,..haiz..but wat can b done ? jus let time pass n walk a step n count a step lo..many other things tat i m disagreed about..jus don noe how to sae out..let it bba,.hope it will b alright one day,..i don wish tis time round my immagination is right,..i hope it will turn into a negative way..its really a big challenge to mi..anyway..tomoro my sista they all wna go temasek poly tomoro after sch..go home change first..hm,..see first ba..nitex.. God bless..
Start eating "healthy meal"..haiz..b'cos of my skin prob lo..hmm..nvm..have to endure..i wan to b like others..have a nice skin..hahax..anyway..schs were alright la..jus tat eat the medicine feel really damn tired..feel like slping all the while..even if i was in a very tired state..i still entertained my friends..i don usually do tat..hmm..jus wan to b the same like others..don wan to giv a face or wat when i not feelin well or wat..cause i don like it when ppl do it to mi too...yup..than after sch went suki..walk walk..than go home le..erm,...ya..something strange lo..mayb i not use to seeing the situation ba..erm..yup..very weird lo..erm..nvm la..i noe he is trying to void ba..don noe..jus feel kinda strange feelin even though there is a smile..ya..hahax..than took cab home..everyone was tired..
Morning went for GB meetin..from 8 to 12..meet up wif vinz n li..than today de training not bad..still quite good. a good start..hope it continues..taught drills..hmm..great improvement though nt tat perfect yet..but really iimprove very much..somemore u all so long no do drills liao..today first day can do until the standard we expected is alrealy well done le..kip it up..proud of u all..than gt promotion..than gave out badges n prize..haiz..we cant get our staff sergeant rank b'coz we still have 3 more project haven hand in since last yr..cause of 'N' lvl ma..haiz..bo bian..now must faster pia n get the staff rank..rather sad when the sec4 is the same as our rank..feel rather weird or wat lo..hmm..don noe la..than vinz waited for meeting end than walked to lot 1..haha..forgot to giv back his book..lol..Went home prepare than went out again..gave vinz his book than go chit chat awhile..than went to my ex-workplace there to get my pay..than after tat went to jurong entertainment centre..had class gathering...went to k-pool for pool..hhaa..than after tat they went to bbq at a fecilitator condor..at the last min than i knew is a combine bbq..somemore is wif strangers lo..sec4 de..we nt even close wif de lo..haiz..than sort of sian diao..than decided not to go..thna in btw many things happen..matter of friends..haiz..disappointed..no one noes it ba.only him..than kept very quiet on the way back..feel so xin ku when u wan to get angry but u jus have to act as if u r not..haiz..than reach cck i seperated from them..i feel like crying..very xin ku...all jus came out from my heart..haiz..than i ren n ren..than went to walk ard lot1..tinking where to go..contacted quite a few close friends n yet none replied..some having own activity..haiz..i feel the lonliness at tat moment..haiz..vinz reply mi late is b;cos of silent mode..the others.......haiz..forget it..Walk n walk..haiz..than suddenly walked into k-box..first time go k-box myself..i'm really very stress up n sad at tat moment..jus feel like being alone n don let anyone find out bout my whereabouts..hiaz,,but someone still manage to find out..i can hide everything from everyone but not him,..everytime i jus feel like being frank wif him n sharing everything wif him..picked up his call n hearing his voice..makes mi feel quite warmth..than he rushed down[i tink la] than came into the room..when i see him..my tears really cant hold back anymore..i cried for quite a long ba i tink..thanks for ur shoulder..sry ar..ur shirt r almost all wet..lolz..but i really cant help it..haha..anyway..u really made mi smilex..tks..Everything had passed..hope everything is fine le..after the heavy cry..feel much better le i tink..plus the laughter given by him..nitex..muackz..
Coming to the end of the week..hmm..my feeling shld b quite happy ba ?! i guess...hmm.. anyway...today had a small misundestanding during recess..hmm..at tat moment of time..i was wondering..jus wat had change ? did anything changed ?? i was shock by everything..i mean at tat moment of time la..choosed to b silence in everything so tat no one gets hurt further more..cause i believe in us..we can settle everything peacefully..it jus nid time..but 1 question also cross thru my mind..how long will it last ? 1 hr ? 2 hr ? 1 day ? 2 days ? or up to mths ? cause last time it is like tat..n it affected mi damn much..tats the worst i ever wanted..jus to sae..i cant care bout much tis yr as i said..though jus now it really affect my mood very much..but i jus controlled myself to kip normal n act as if nth happens..haiz..knew tat it would happen again 1 day,.see her cry i also feel guilty,..i felt i can do nth being her friend..gals r "soft"..mayb not on the outside but deffinitely in the inside..at tat time i put myself in her "shoes"..i thought..if it was mi who met wif tis kind iof things..wat will my reaction be ?? ya..i'll cry too..cause my heart jus cant take it when guys raise voice on mi..others still ok..but our love ones..we tense to b more sensitive..cause we tink we r close one..no pt raising voice when it is a misunderstanding..haiz..mayb different ppl have different saying.but i jus sae out my feelin..i noe vinz temper..he's changing..ya i noe..but..she did it out of no harm..real..she jus raise her voice at u jus b'cos she wan to alert the 2 gals beside to move to other place..n she looked at u jus b'cos u r jus rite infront..aiya..nvm la..i noe u noe de..jus sae out how i felt..cause i kip in myself from jus now till now le;.very xin ku..don take it to heart for whoeva sees my blog..wateva i write cums from my hearts..so i jus wan to freely n feel very relax when writing my blog..anyone feel uncomfortable reading it..i suggest u can leave tis page..nv to enter it again..i don wan my feelin to b affected..i don wan to hide it..i blog jus to write out all my feelin..than during CE[character education] lesson..had a great time..took class photo..by mr yeo..he took our photo cause we told him its time to change his laptop wallpaper le..he put his last yr form class photo..so we said..tis yr is 5C who is his form class..so must change le..haha..so he took our photo to change it,,after sch rain so big..than go lot 1 wif one big "gang",..haha..than also kena wet abit..reach lot1 seperate from shirley they all..spilt into 2 groups..than went to long john wif charmaine..qian wen.serene..wan hui n vinz.than they ate but mi n him no eat..don feel like..than after tat vinz sae wan go eat sushi..than went sakae..haiz..stupid idiot freak sehz..so many things happen in there..than wateva we ordered r not being serve..wateva we did not order or rather jus order 1 serving n it came 5 serving each..siao lo..haiz,..than all i have to pay for it..cause i order de ma..the computer think something wrong ar..haiz..click 1 n it appear 5..haiz..so gek xim..than nvm lo..but still had a happy chatting there ba..it cost a bomb again,..haiz..so irritating..haiz..but no choice la..vinz..sry ar..everytime u had to use nets..cause i don like to..so i orefer giving u cash..haha..i noe u don like to too..but no choice la..u no withdraw money..haha..than after tat went to library..do work than do something weird.haha..than after tat jiu go home le..cause very late le..erm..vinz ar..look at ur blog i really got a shock,..cause u noe wat u doin n sort of erm..eh..aiya..don noe how to sae la..haha..than good la..but jus hope u n jj wont have so much of "hate"..he means no harm to u too..really..he jus like to play wif u..n make u angry than see u angry de expression..=p..hiaz..don noe la..let u decide hao le..its ur choice..haha..than tks for letting mi len on u..i'm really tired..feel like dropping down anytime..u r always the pole to hold mi up..tks anyway..recently feel really stress up..really very..than things kip happening day by day..i jus hope i can take it n accept n adapt to it as time goes by...i feel like dropping down..feel like my head is so stress up n tight up..makes mi feel breathless at time..haiz..mayb i'm still not adapted to it yet ba..haiz..feel really really very tired..really..even the strength to tok is also fading soon..haiz..give mi strength pls..haiz...Being voted as the vice-chairman today..hmm..wat would it b like ?! i tink i'l b doin all the thing jus like the chairman do ba,cause as wat others feedback is..our chairman is nth..doin nth but hack caring everything..haha..a tough job for mi again ba..hmm..endure..jia you..now headace..mayb jus now kena rain so affected..nvm la..no prob de..haha..tomoro will b a long day,hmm..open house for sec 1..or rather is cca open house..haha..than 1st time is in the nite de lo..tink start from 6 something to 8 something..than we go see see lo..help out if possible..senior ma..haha..k la..end here le..gonna go rest.nitex...muackz..
Arghh... A brand new yr started,..as well as a stressful yr..haiz..'O' lvl tis yr..major exam..our final lap..work so hard for the past few yrs is jus for tis final yr..i mean most impt..cause after tis yr..we'll b seperated..tis week is jus the beginning week..but i can already feel the stress in it..haiz..i bet everyone is facing the same prob as mi ba.hmm..no choice sehx..though noe tat its tough for mi tis yr..but also must endure thru..tis yr really no time for any game..any fun le..not sae no la.but not tat often,..last few yrs already played too muchh..too much of k box..too much of fun outside..no more,...really no more..i bomb my result until so jia lat liao so tis yr i must work double hard,,not to bother anout any unimpt thing anymore..which make mi feel so fan n affects my study..so bo liao lo..now think back also feel so childish..haiz...pls la..don bother mi with all tis idiot thing again hor ! no offence to anyone,,jus reminding,.i'm slower than u all so i nid more time than u all to study..k..money also must b saved liao..used really far tooo much liao..so now must save back..than can buy the things i wan..than can help in my house incomes..new yr new revolution..gaining all my friends back again...hope nth or no one ever changes it,,as we r grown up now n noes how to tink..than as for those unwanted history memories..suggest to flash down the toilet bowl...don repeat it again..no use de..ppl jus can continue walking straight so must well start again..kz,..everyone's changing..jus it is to depend whether to change into a better one or worst one..tats all..so jus hope everythings goes well for tis entire yr..jus hope we can endure thru n help each other thru out the yr..no disaster..no unhappinest n no seperate from anyone..jia you..
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